Sth i dunno

had very little time for napping then off to work~
overnight so most of them r sleeping..thank God someone had a muscle cramp n came to talk to me..nice way to spend time with =)

sth i may not know about my hometown Pg, ther's an air force station of Royal Malaysian Air Force actually in Butterworth itself.. what i shame, i need a Australian to tell me so ><
RAF->RAAF->RMAF
now, As of October 2008, the Australian Defence Force continues to maintain a presence at RMAF Butterworth as part of Australia's commitment to the Five Power Defence Arrangements (FPDA), with No. 324 Combat Support Squadron and a detachment of AP-3C Orion aircraft from No. 92 Wing RAAF being located at the airfield. In addition, the Australian Army maintains an infantry company (designated Rifle Company Butterworth) at Butterworth for training purposes. (wiki)

we then had (science talk) where he mentioned one of the products he came out with, Leimo, a shampoo, was one of those that he felt very proud of.....
n we were talking bout research n stuff =(((((((
kinda stir me a little to think about going back to science.. sth that i thought i was suppose to be in... sth that i used to b interested in~
anyway, learnt a lot by talking to him today... that's what i LOVE about my job.. u can literally just get to talk to any strangers out of the 200-300 ppl.. wasnt that amazing?? =)))

ppl, did u noticed the clock is still ticking?? it's end of NOV already~
when i told me teacher i wil b coming bac for class on 1st of dec, he gave me a look lk, we r so lacking of time ><
I AM SO LACKING OF TIME in a lot of aspects too!!
have u done what u've set back in Jan, 10 mths ago?? honestly, couldnt really rmb what was my new yr resolutions back then, LOL!
but i think.......i kinda did juz let the tim passing by... tsk tsk tsk!

anyway, Lang Lang is coming to SG.. although he's not performing.. but i kinda did went n buy the tix at the very laz min without looking at the price, juz to see him in person..
sometimes i think i really dont do things with very rational thinking..kekeke!
WATEVER =P

Ma work.....

it's 2 degree out there right now...Sunday again,everything's else r closed..
sth tat i couldnt understand n dont really like...y certain countries,lk Aussie,NZ, hv all the shops closed after 5?y Germany,Switzerland, hv Sun off...y Paris hv only certain period of time when u can get to buy a meal @@

anyway, today's not going to b a happy post....
my work sucks till MAX today....but i dont even know what happened~~
probably i get to go bac pg again??? no kidding..

i rmb the very laz tim i went bac was 3 mths ago...for a week~for the very last day while i depart from the airport to sg,the captain flew over pg bridge..that's when heavy down pour.....the tears from my eyes i mean...n i got very emo for bout a week bac here,tk bac some time to get used to everything again...from then on,i never make the effort to go bac cuz i know how much tat could affect me...
but since im going bac soon..im not so well again =(((
kinda very disappointed with my work today,seriously..
feel lk going to church n cry for hours again....(yea,i did ><)

sigh sigh~get well soon....gonna try harder next sector!

as much as i dont like this feeling,still, i would love to happily say...im going bac home PG!! wait for me right ther =)

someone recommend me a book,tiger mum...nice? he(german) got married with a korean lady with 3 kids...saw the pic, urgh! so darn adorable!! lucky him =)
gonna go bac n buy some other books too,cuz my fav writer came out with new books now..keke!

4pm....long way to go till Monday...continue telling myself,dont me emo,hax!!

tk care ppl..! =)

Hong Kong (homework)

So yea,been to few countries..visited most of the Asian countries but guess what?? i only get to step into Hong Kong, ONCE~~for that few hours...BESIDE the airport >< never been to town.. it's not lk i really DESPO to go..it's just that,out of curiosity..since it's lk another MUST go kinda place.. sis been there,so lk, no company, sigh sigh~~ watched this TV programme the other day introducing some places in HK think everybody knows it's highly populated country but easy to go around the city..blah blah... u can get to go to the seaside town..as in really,seaside town..haha! where u can get to eat lots of fresh seafood~ FYI, they actually cook the starfish for soup.....sth tat really make my jaw dropped was that, they eat starfish's eggs...lk, ewww~~

how nice~~

Honeymoon dessert..a must go too~ wher diff sorts of varieties of desserts r available..

http://www.honeymoon-dessert.com/en_us/category.php?tag=all

can try to log on to their web,quite interesting though~

at night can go off to Aqua Luna

Oo..if u do get to know, the Madame Tussauds, wher u get to touch,hug, hand shake or watsoever with the wax..actually, everyday b4 the operating hours, the staff would touch up the wax..that's how they maintain that =)

Tarts everywhere..but the good once, Tai Cheong was recommended

Tai Cheong Bakery

To get some souvenirs, probably head to Hollywood Road n find a store, GOD (Good of Desire) where they hv lots of items combined with fine arts..probably would be sth special to get back home~

oh yea,btw, HK famous actor, Jacky Chan..Staring Shinjuku Incident...hv u watch yet?? i mean izit out yet? LOL..so outdated @@

probably if u were looking for a very luxury n comfy hotel to stay in, try W Hong Kong,

with the concept Whatever, Whenever...in Kaolun..

Mathew Jung..kinda admire his way of managing the whole hotel..from inside out, it just seems so perfect~

dont hv to check in, welcome drink waiting for u in room..

oh, n the staff there r actually empowered to do anything for the customers...say, someone mentioned he/she missed the dog back at home..the staff could actually go out n get a mayb, say, soft toy of a doggie n put inside the room n surprise the customers.. how sweet rite?

n, digital arts everywher~

towards the check out, the staff would actually help u to pack ur bag, lk u can juz leave everything for them...

think it would b lk a very nice experience.. =) but muz hv cost a boom too =P

anyway, havent been ther yet,so..........nothing much i could comment =((((

When's my turn to go HK???? hmm~~

going Switzerland tmr..kinda,cold now.....mentally feel lk going out but physically..hmm hmm~~

Nitey~

Sheer Cover...over overrated in overseas!!!!

was sleeping the other night....with the TV on..
this ad, keep repeating n REPEATING towards morning time..
so, i woke up....annoyed~
n watched.....
the products r highly highly recommended!!
so,girls.....if u're interested =P

?????

stayed in the house for one whole day...finally it's over~~get to work tmr,woohoo!!! =)
i rmb 'someone' used to ask me, y cant i juz sit quietly at home, relax, get some rest together, enjoy the time being together, (save up money too)..haha,i guess just, CANT do it~~
now that my mum isnt working anymore..sometimes when i called her she's lk,im freaking bored~~~i LOL...but deep down inside,i know exactly how she feels..it's sth kinda lk, inherited?? muahaha! dont think we r lk hyperactive person..but we juz,cant do it.. =P

anyway,thought about a lot of things in this 12 hrs time..emailed ppl here n ther, ask about stuff that i MAY b interested in,etc..
so now left with a lot of question marks in my head..

spoke to my sis, talking bout getting bac to study..talked bout how i see things coming in 5 yrs time..she thinks im crazy,tat i may hv considering too little..but i duno, things happening around me,each days, r equally crazy enough ain't it =)
n i think, things tat dont sound crazy..or doesnt excites u...whats the point? ever heard about IF, u r not doing things tat u like daily, IF u hv no sense of purpose in living each days..u r physically alive..but truth is, u r dying slowly each days~~
n that when the day has come..i dunno,what will u feel that time? @@
n, think no one would actually hv a strong faith in u really..u just hv to believe in urself first b4 anybody gets to blif in you~~unless u're lucky enough to find tat soulmate that trust u in watever way u r..
'Stand up for wat u blif in, even it means standing alone' that's what tat inspired me yrs ago..n it stays forever with me >.=

so,i got some replies from SIM..n juz b4 the night ends, i received msg from my teacher,asking me except for flying..i really hv to b focus more on piano..only 3.5 mths left for now...for me to skip another grade~leaving me with guilts....since my theory exam,i think i kinda left out the piano till now..i juz..slowed down, ALOT ><
honestly, he bcame very anxious about me scoring lately..good n bad, im quite stress out actually~hahax!
but now i kinda get it...if his aims were to set up a music school (non profit)...for the poor to approach music.......i guess, IM IN... =)

so wats with the title of ???
will ther b a time when u juz wish u can do 100% out of ur to do list? fact is,in real life..u will need lots of lots of support to get that 100%..if not, sorry..probably juz 1/2~n make tat 1/2 be perfect....n u're gonna SHINE~~
???? i dunno wats the 1/2 going to be..aww~~
BUT,life is beautiful!!

wanna know a lil secret about me?
wats my weakness actually?
PATIENCE...i dont hv =)
high school yr,im juz so impatience that i had gone for work at the age of 15..
college yrs..im so impatience that i stop my degree n grab a permanent job..
love life,im so impatience sometimes that i dunno wats with the guy tat may seems to b interested in u,still not doing anything @@
so every day in my life now,i just need to tell myself, Shuang, BE PATIENT!!!
repeat with me plz....BE PATIENT!!
i really dont wanna stop wat im doing now..because everything else, (except for that sth,which im not going to tell) r sooO much perfect~



enjoy the song..n rmb, ur life is perfect too~ cuz u still get to make changes n aim for watever u feel lk doing for now!

n not to forget this,

this kind of thing, only certain ppl would send me to..it means a lot..


Have a GOOD night, folks!!~

Dato,Datin......

So, im back from kl ytd....n the amount of ppl with the title (dato) were lk....30%??
it really makes me wonder lk..how many of them r they in the country?
izit really lk what they said, u can buy the title, bout few millions..then, it helps in ur career especially if u're in business??
so SICK!!! after all, ppl r not that poor isnt it?

i recalled back ther's this time when i was waiting for pickup in front of a hotel,sth lk 5 star hotel..at the front where they hv two clubs..
sitting there alone,bout an hour....lots of Ferrari,lots of Mercedes.....get down the car,hand the key,went into the clubs,with few chicks n all~
for what i expect,was suppose to be someone at certain age range,with a look of wealthy background..but,nah~most of them r lk...at their late 20s,or 30s...skinny....not charming,(M)~ not being racist but..it is how it is...
it's so sad to watch most of my frenz,most of the ppl r working so hard for a living....while them?they juz got it,n i think they dont deserve it...

if we were to reveal lots of ugly sides of the country...i dont think just the politics alone, it's the culture, it's the people...that..we juz basically cant get rid of..
sighHH~~~right? ><

been working on weekends for the past two days..rainy days..
n i've got an off today...MOnday,when everyone's going back to work =((
anyhooo...probably it's time to go for stretch fit class~~hope im doing well..havent been exercising since..ages!! havent step into the pool for bout 2 mths since i got drowned d too...
n a good massage~~~
n a movie~~

Lovely day..730am.. just, cant wait to start off the day! =) XOXO

Wats with being RUDE?

guess what?! it's 4 am now..finished work n reached bac hours ago....feel lk posting sth bout what i've encountered today...
just really feel lk writing them down....for some day in the future, it reminds me every time of the moment, please dont turn into a person like THAT!

so yea, met him, the first thing he came to me, was asking for a form, in english version..it was written n filled in malay, so i double confirmed, u needed a eng one? so yea, he said yes..n when i get back n hand to him,he made a hand gesture n said,i dont need them..could u keep this for me?
so im lk, fine..took the thing n go off (politely).. which normally ppl would ask for 'sth' to b able to recognize it belongs to him..but i didnt cuz im having time constraint n i could rmb n recognize things..then he asked me, so u need that 'sth' or not....i smiled n said,no thanks, i will b able to recognize this..n he challenge me by asking me muz return to him as in HIM..
at that particular moment,it gets into my heart right away that this person is not easy~~n that only took us few sentences of talking, one or two body language..

n...i was right, because after which, he gave me a lot of problems..(which,couldnt really tell in details)
so,when i hv time to sit down n rethink...if u hv filled up the form,y ask for another copy in eng...if u were to know we alwez need that 'sth',y cant u juz hand in tgt with ur stuff?

if u were to ask me hv i gain sth so far out of the career?? i would say yea,money for sure....but money cant buy everything..
it's the lots of lots of lessons, taught by diff people, diff stages of ppl of all walks in life..
it made me a better person to who i am today...for i really came down to appreciate a lot of things..from me myself,to my family,even to a stranger tat is talking to me in no wher~n probably, being more sensitive to ppl nowadays..it's like,i can just tell..

sometimes,i dont get it,
does it mean that when u r paying for sth, u get to say everything? u get to have everything in the world that u could possibly think of from ur mind?that the time is all urs?
we used to know that ppl of higher level in the society r very easy going..communicating with them is never a prob,it's the middle range one, the one that earn well but not enough r the fussy once..
n one of the reason they used to tell me is that, those very wealthy once hv too much of prob in life that they wouldnt trouble themselves for tiny little prob that u gv them..
to me,it's not......i think it's their easy going attitude r the one that lead them to b how successful they r today..of their ability to handle stress that make them who they r today..
in n out every day, i've met ppl who impressed me, very much impressed....
but, still, ther r tons of ppl whom i juz dont get why.....it's lk,they just dont get it!~n,im guessing they wil never get it..

nonetheless, ppl.... i would juz lk to remind u,of who u r today, of wher u r standing today, be sincere to urself in the future u....also, be respectful to others..u will b pleased to know how far it could lead u..really~~
ther's no point to be particular n all stress out n mean...cuz at some point, u will only be standing n stepping on the same stage,couldnt go any further...cuz that's when u hv reach ur limits..n nobody would remind u of ur situation....bcuz u hv got no one else dare to be sincere to u in some ways~

too many too many ppl....too many things that we r handling every day..but to me, ther's only a very fine line between yes n no, in or out, right or wrong..
sometimes, ther is really nothing that state what is black or white..it's juz how u handle things n how u make ppl feel~~
do u think that all the very good decision makers r really that smart that they could differentiate n analyze things well every single day?? i personally dont think so...
be good to ppl, have a positive attitude..most of the time,it helps....to me,thats when the thing called 'luck' came~

talking bout ppl,
i really dont wanna categorize ppl by their countries or skin color...but i would lk to say, certain ppl r very outspoken, some VERY positive, some VERY negative, some very easy going..
i would just lk to talk about malaysians...we r very easy going ppl~ it's lk when ppl cut ur queue, when ppl mistreat u...we normally would just accept it..BUT complaining bhind the back..
it shows, in our politics..... because no matter how bad it is...we will still take it..
i dont wanna see my country falls apart..i stil have faith that we hv got very talented ppl in the country
how i wish someday,things would change.....
WILL WE CHANGE???

Aims..

So guess what...i hv been hybernating for two days in the hotel room,not going anywher when initially i planned for going Austria...
Think its juz the fact tat i don feel lk exploring the city alone,dont lk to b alone lately =) which is y,i was a bit upset leaving sg bfore coming...hv got two more days here,can i go back juz yet??
It's one of those days,when u r down,u hv a bad dream...a really bad one i mean,probably slept too much,hax!!
So yea,i went dumb for a lil while after being awake..
then as usual,ther goes a story telling coincidentally,when i needed them,great advise.. alwez ther to encourage me..brought me up to who i am today i shall say =)))

So yea,y whine about not having a home,y lost faith..
i could build one on my own,i could make them happen....
should stop thinking bout WHAT IF~
life is too short for that aint it?
So....probably its a good timing to get a house in kl...yup,decided to reside in kl,not the lovely pg...for my mum =)
n yea,seriously, i need to get to the classes...pick up some dancing,yoga mayb..

Skip my BMW museum today,which may b a good lost...but nvm,wil go another trip then...

still dunno wat to do bout future...but who cares~~im a girl who alwez do juz watever for wat it takes when i want them to b true,right??
Felt good now... n its Xmas soon my dear,can u feel it??
Cant wait!!!thanks for the good energy =) life is always good when u r around~

N,he mentioned sth lk, dont b sad for those tat hv betrayed u,hv walked away from ur life,for they didnt set u bac,they set u up...for the person u r today..cuz if they dont do so,u would probably not s successful s wat u r now..
so,if u r missing someone,if u r wondering y....tats y =)
B happy always! For anything tat comes in the future..!

There r still a lot of ambiguity seriously..lk,when shall i stop this 'holiday',when do i wanna get bac to study n live a normal life,n receive the happiness that every regular person gets..
i might not go bac to study d i guess...we study for getting to do wat u r good at,what u enjoy doing,get financially independent dont we??i guess i am able to do tat so far...so,i'll skip tat for now..stop stressing myself out of nothing here d..we alwez hv the ans of wat to do n when to do them most of the tim..but we juz lk to keep thinking n keep asking HOW,dont we =p
I can b very particular bout certain things, but im a very contented person i shall say ＾＾

Gambate lar~~b prepared for tmr,but not to worry bout tmr =)

when everyone's soundly asleep.....

It's bout 11pm here in Munich, 10·C, probably 6 in the morning back in msia..
I've got no one to talk to....not much place to hang out...tv's too bored having most channels tat speak in language i don und..ppl's too judgemental..so,kinda decided to stay in,hv my in room dining,avoid the crowd,the weather,the ppl...

Read back the blog,with the song played, kinda felt it's like a joke..Wat kind of big joke could happen in ur life??when u wanna go home... but frankly i doubt i hv one...hv no one to say,i miss u,n the needs of me being at anyone's side..
YET,
wat kind of joke could it b if...u hv always wanted sth,but nobody seems to b giving anything..n tat u drift urself away,away from the reality..n tat after yrs later,u suddenly came to realize a lot of ppl is giving n u're running away to accept,bcuz the fear of accepting wat might comes after tat..due to the fact,the dissappointment u hv bfore..

It's funny everytim u thought about sth,n tat goes lk how perfect,how sweet if tat could juz came true in ur life..but when it's happenning n u wil b asking,is tat wat i really wan? Cuz, everything seems to b possible,but probably too much to gv..

This is a song i used to play one yr bac...n i guess most of us felt lk its singing literally how we felt when we all first joined..
But,the 'someone else's life' has kinda be in part of me for bout one n a half yr...from a person who text a lot,hv got lots of contacts,likes meeting ppl,etc...to someone who could leave the phone bac in the house,knowing no one would bother calling anyway,till its odd having ppl asking how u r every day..i kinda,took it all..

At this point,i really wish i could make a pause...to breathe~
Because i know im very contented with wat i've pull out so far..
n i don seems to b able to gv anything else..n seriously,the world has got too much of temptations...the unknown..that i would possibly wanna know....i dont wanna stop just yet~For someone whom im not certain of..for those who r not even hv faith to themselves..
N i can assure u tat im nt being selfish...hv tried yrs to make ppl i care being happy...but truth is,no matter how hard u try,it all depends on how open hearted the person is,to accept wat u r trying..

Its kinda sad to hv this obvious ans in my mind for now....for,im not the girl bac then who go for just anything by guts..
but guess,tats how it is....for now =)
Truth is....ther r too many negative vibes....n im losing my faith..