Wats with being RUDE?

guess what?! it's 4 am now..finished work n reached bac hours ago....feel lk posting sth bout what i've encountered today...
just really feel lk writing them down....for some day in the future, it reminds me every time of the moment, please dont turn into a person like THAT!

so yea, met him, the first thing he came to me, was asking for a form, in english version..it was written n filled in malay, so i double confirmed, u needed a eng one? so yea, he said yes..n when i get back n hand to him,he made a hand gesture n said,i dont need them..could u keep this for me?
so im lk, fine..took the thing n go off (politely).. which normally ppl would ask for 'sth' to b able to recognize it belongs to him..but i didnt cuz im having time constraint n i could rmb n recognize things..then he asked me, so u need that 'sth' or not....i smiled n said,no thanks, i will b able to recognize this..n he challenge me by asking me muz return to him as in HIM..
at that particular moment,it gets into my heart right away that this person is not easy~~n that only took us few sentences of talking, one or two body language..

n...i was right, because after which, he gave me a lot of problems..(which,couldnt really tell in details)
so,when i hv time to sit down n rethink...if u hv filled up the form,y ask for another copy in eng...if u were to know we alwez need that 'sth',y cant u juz hand in tgt with ur stuff?

if u were to ask me hv i gain sth so far out of the career?? i would say yea,money for sure....but money cant buy everything..
it's the lots of lots of lessons, taught by diff people, diff stages of ppl of all walks in life..
it made me a better person to who i am today...for i really came down to appreciate a lot of things..from me myself,to my family,even to a stranger tat is talking to me in no wher~n probably, being more sensitive to ppl nowadays..it's like,i can just tell..

sometimes,i dont get it,
does it mean that when u r paying for sth, u get to say everything? u get to have everything in the world that u could possibly think of from ur mind?that the time is all urs?
we used to know that ppl of higher level in the society r very easy going..communicating with them is never a prob,it's the middle range one, the one that earn well but not enough r the fussy once..
n one of the reason they used to tell me is that, those very wealthy once hv too much of prob in life that they wouldnt trouble themselves for tiny little prob that u gv them..
to me,it's not......i think it's their easy going attitude r the one that lead them to b how successful they r today..of their ability to handle stress that make them who they r today..
in n out every day, i've met ppl who impressed me, very much impressed....
but, still, ther r tons of ppl whom i juz dont get why.....it's lk,they just dont get it!~n,im guessing they wil never get it..

nonetheless, ppl.... i would juz lk to remind u,of who u r today, of wher u r standing today, be sincere to urself in the future u....also, be respectful to others..u will b pleased to know how far it could lead u..really~~
ther's no point to be particular n all stress out n mean...cuz at some point, u will only be standing n stepping on the same stage,couldnt go any further...cuz that's when u hv reach ur limits..n nobody would remind u of ur situation....bcuz u hv got no one else dare to be sincere to u in some ways~

too many too many ppl....too many things that we r handling every day..but to me, ther's only a very fine line between yes n no, in or out, right or wrong..
sometimes, ther is really nothing that state what is black or white..it's juz how u handle things n how u make ppl feel~~
do u think that all the very good decision makers r really that smart that they could differentiate n analyze things well every single day?? i personally dont think so...
be good to ppl, have a positive attitude..most of the time,it helps....to me,thats when the thing called 'luck' came~

talking bout ppl,
i really dont wanna categorize ppl by their countries or skin color...but i would lk to say, certain ppl r very outspoken, some VERY positive, some VERY negative, some very easy going..
i would just lk to talk about malaysians...we r very easy going ppl~ it's lk when ppl cut ur queue, when ppl mistreat u...we normally would just accept it..BUT complaining bhind the back..
it shows, in our politics..... because no matter how bad it is...we will still take it..
i dont wanna see my country falls apart..i stil have faith that we hv got very talented ppl in the country
how i wish someday,things would change.....
WILL WE CHANGE???

Aims..

So guess what...i hv been hybernating for two days in the hotel room,not going anywher when initially i planned for going Austria...
Think its juz the fact tat i don feel lk exploring the city alone,dont lk to b alone lately =) which is y,i was a bit upset leaving sg bfore coming...hv got two more days here,can i go back juz yet??
It's one of those days,when u r down,u hv a bad dream...a really bad one i mean,probably slept too much,hax!!
So yea,i went dumb for a lil while after being awake..
then as usual,ther goes a story telling coincidentally,when i needed them,great advise.. alwez ther to encourage me..brought me up to who i am today i shall say =)))

So yea,y whine about not having a home,y lost faith..
i could build one on my own,i could make them happen....
should stop thinking bout WHAT IF~
life is too short for that aint it?
So....probably its a good timing to get a house in kl...yup,decided to reside in kl,not the lovely pg...for my mum =)
n yea,seriously, i need to get to the classes...pick up some dancing,yoga mayb..

Skip my BMW museum today,which may b a good lost...but nvm,wil go another trip then...

still dunno wat to do bout future...but who cares~~im a girl who alwez do juz watever for wat it takes when i want them to b true,right??
Felt good now... n its Xmas soon my dear,can u feel it??
Cant wait!!!thanks for the good energy =) life is always good when u r around~

N,he mentioned sth lk, dont b sad for those tat hv betrayed u,hv walked away from ur life,for they didnt set u bac,they set u up...for the person u r today..cuz if they dont do so,u would probably not s successful s wat u r now..
so,if u r missing someone,if u r wondering y....tats y =)
B happy always! For anything tat comes in the future..!

There r still a lot of ambiguity seriously..lk,when shall i stop this 'holiday',when do i wanna get bac to study n live a normal life,n receive the happiness that every regular person gets..
i might not go bac to study d i guess...we study for getting to do wat u r good at,what u enjoy doing,get financially independent dont we??i guess i am able to do tat so far...so,i'll skip tat for now..stop stressing myself out of nothing here d..we alwez hv the ans of wat to do n when to do them most of the tim..but we juz lk to keep thinking n keep asking HOW,dont we =p
I can b very particular bout certain things, but im a very contented person i shall say ＾＾

Gambate lar~~b prepared for tmr,but not to worry bout tmr =)

when everyone's soundly asleep.....

It's bout 11pm here in Munich, 10·C, probably 6 in the morning back in msia..
I've got no one to talk to....not much place to hang out...tv's too bored having most channels tat speak in language i don und..ppl's too judgemental..so,kinda decided to stay in,hv my in room dining,avoid the crowd,the weather,the ppl...

Read back the blog,with the song played, kinda felt it's like a joke..Wat kind of big joke could happen in ur life??when u wanna go home... but frankly i doubt i hv one...hv no one to say,i miss u,n the needs of me being at anyone's side..
YET,
wat kind of joke could it b if...u hv always wanted sth,but nobody seems to b giving anything..n tat u drift urself away,away from the reality..n tat after yrs later,u suddenly came to realize a lot of ppl is giving n u're running away to accept,bcuz the fear of accepting wat might comes after tat..due to the fact,the dissappointment u hv bfore..

It's funny everytim u thought about sth,n tat goes lk how perfect,how sweet if tat could juz came true in ur life..but when it's happenning n u wil b asking,is tat wat i really wan? Cuz, everything seems to b possible,but probably too much to gv..

This is a song i used to play one yr bac...n i guess most of us felt lk its singing literally how we felt when we all first joined..
But,the 'someone else's life' has kinda be in part of me for bout one n a half yr...from a person who text a lot,hv got lots of contacts,likes meeting ppl,etc...to someone who could leave the phone bac in the house,knowing no one would bother calling anyway,till its odd having ppl asking how u r every day..i kinda,took it all..

At this point,i really wish i could make a pause...to breathe~
Because i know im very contented with wat i've pull out so far..
n i don seems to b able to gv anything else..n seriously,the world has got too much of temptations...the unknown..that i would possibly wanna know....i dont wanna stop just yet~For someone whom im not certain of..for those who r not even hv faith to themselves..
N i can assure u tat im nt being selfish...hv tried yrs to make ppl i care being happy...but truth is,no matter how hard u try,it all depends on how open hearted the person is,to accept wat u r trying..

Its kinda sad to hv this obvious ans in my mind for now....for,im not the girl bac then who go for just anything by guts..
but guess,tats how it is....for now =)
Truth is....ther r too many negative vibes....n im losing my faith..

One emo night...AGAIN~~

Watched Grey's...
laz epi, saying, "There's a reason i said i would b happy alone... It wasnt cuz i thought i would b happy alone
it was bcuz i thought if i love someone n it fall apart,i might not make it.. It's easier to be alone....
Cuz,wat if u like it n lean on it,
wat if u shape ur life around it,n then.....
It falls apart?
Can u even survive that kind of pain?

was a very sad ending for tat season..as always~shed some tears,sigh!
damn, im so emo...
Not quite sure whether or not its love..cuz after all,no one likes to commit at this age,n wheen things r too good to b true,i tend to juz runaway... It started with me meeting this girl, who works very hard for her life..
n i felt so sad for myself ><

think i've not been sleeping well lately, every 4 hours o sleep i wake up..
n it all depends whether or not i would lk to continue sleeping...most often than not,i didnt..

remember one n a half yr back, when i went for the job interview,
ther's this girl who mentioned this job would gives u a life-changing experience, it's an eye opener,etc..
to which i thought at that moment, REALLY?? too much!!
but looking back, yea, she somehow got it a lil bit right..
i've changed, ppl changed..
it sometimes too hard to see n too sad to accept~
n i kinda don wan myself to change tat way =(

when she asked me,so, wat u plan for future..?
i was like...frankly, i dunno.....
n she responded n say,tats good, it provides u more flexibility tat may comes the coming yrs..
hmm...wat does tat even mean??! i don even know where to start now, sigh~~

aih,can someone stop me from feeling guilty to hv sufficient rest each days??

Maslow's theory

well, somehow i think,yea,it kinda makes sense.....
so guys, which stage r u in now???
sometimes i do wonder, the hierarchy's right but it might not hv to b a triangle, should b a circle~ yes probably most of the physiological needs are met, n go on n on till they're satisfied of self-actualization (lk we would really satisfied =P) then,most often than not, we do go bac to the very basics, n rebuild a stronger base, get more of the physiological needs don't we? =)))

for whatever it is, gambate!!~