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haloha~~ same old opening,but seriously, been some time since i last blog,din notice the blogger has some updates, now i dunno how to view other's blog d >< wher has the dashboard thing gone??!! @@

anyway,
guess what?! it's 13th of May already...few more days then im officially here in Singapore for 2 years! it feels lk as if ages im here aint it? but somehow i do feel a lot of things juz happened ytd..
lots of ppl r leaving.. in n out, we do change somehow~

got emo quite some while, got lost quite some while, spurge a lot for awhile...........n,ytd, went back to office to review on my record n so.......
for now, suddenly feel like, i kinda need to be n act like an adult dont i?
cant be like last time, keep thinking of escaping from whatever im doing, just because i dont like it..
starts to know what i really like, starts to learn n still learning, how to enjoy things tat i do enjoy~
of course,im sure everyone out there do the same as well.. quite glad that ppl i know, ppl i care of, r doing pretty well =)

dunno why, for now, the only thing im sure of is that, MUSIC!~ teehee!
probably im really those kind of ppl where i just wanna hide in a place where ther's no competition, no acting, lying n stuff in the society......only, plainly, enjoying urself inside the world of music ha!~ =)

soO...jeng jeng*
got my piano in the yr of 2011, Feb, sth im quite happy of~

finish my G3 in Sept, (Merit)

 

Done my theory of G5 in Oct (Distinction)

 &&&& finish G5 prac this yr in Feb...(Distinction)

of course,a lot of times, i would think, who am i,to start at this age, n what i have to compete with those that start from young right? 

but, simple advice from Shuang here, it's always better late than never!!~

it will never be too late....n,rmb to do things for urself! not for how ppl would see u n judge u~ cuz, in the end of the day, u r the one who would judge n gv urself the score of ur OWN life =P

so, it took me exactly one year's time, to get a G5, with distiction...kekeke! sth im quite proud of >.=

n erm......spent 2 yrs, loiterring around, from place to place around the world.......

sometimes, i don't really know, what will be the next?!

BUT, for now wat i know is, im taking time off .. no more exams!~

though, it wasnt decide by me...really wanted another exam,but not encouraged by my teacher, soO~~~

for now, what i need to do is juz be Patient! hope our souls could find peace =)

find myself super lazy lately..everything kinda juz slowed down...zzZZZ~

is that what they call, settle down? ><

settle down lone-some is not that awesome aint it? hax!

if u're wondering y.......ern, probably im waiting for someone like 'you'

who's the 'you'?!

my dad =)

cause, his love is unconditional~ for a very long time, i think my mum's the luckiest lady ever to have the chance to be married to a man like my daddy~ 

if u can hear me dad, i do miss u, a lot! n,yea...i'll be here patiently waiting for someone like u to appear in my life... (still) =PPPP

a lot of times, we face difficulties, n we feel like that's the worst that it can go....but~ please do remember, u can still wake up each days, hv ur feet stand still on ground, freshen up,start a brand new day..

u can still open up ur eyes, to watch how pretty the world is, each days!

almost had my tears down the other day on the way back in the bus ride, knowing one of the person i worked with, had someone close to him that, passed away..it could be unbearable....n that always has been my fear...

sometimes, it's not that we don wanna stay near to ppl we love..but life leave us no choice...

all i can pray for is... ppl i do love, to know how to tk care of themselves, n to know i really do hope, i could always be with them..

Hope my post finds all of u well here!~

Peace VV  wink*

What does ur fav color defines u~

recently found out im kinda attracted to everything with RED..red is bad as usual..so, thought of finding out wats the meaning bhind~

Red Meaning

Red is the colour of passion, enthusiasm and vibrant energy. The meaning of red is that of action, motivation and excitement.

Red Colour Personality

The red colour meaning linked to personality explains the character traits most associated with people who have red as a favourite colour.

So if you have a red colour personality you have fiery, passionate nature and a lust for life.

If you have red as a favourite colour you are brave, courageous and very daring. Your energy and enthusiasm for life is contagious and many people see you as a motivational and inspirational character.

You are competitive, assertive and sometimes aggressive in your career. You like to win and cannot deal with defeat.

You love parties and social situations where you can be the centre of attention. You are the life and soul of any party and have many admirers around you. Your confidence and self esteem are high and you are not afraid of tackling any challenge. In fact you thrive on challenges.

On the downside of a red colour personality you can be too over the top and seldom take time to really relax.

With red as a favourite colour you can be too impulsive and often take action before really thinking things through.

If red is your favourite colour it is time for putting your full and vibrant energy into things you want to accomplish. You will feel determined and fully motivated and will let nothing and no one get in your way. Be motivated to use all your passion and energy to succeed.

It is also a great time to being open to ideas for adventure and new exciting experiences.

Having a personality color red identifies you as extroverted and optimistic, courageous and confident.

You are action oriented and physically active - sex is a necessity to you - you have strong survival instincts.

With a favorite color red, you like to be the center of attention - in fact all reds crave attention - other people are drawn to the vitality and sense of excitement you emit.

You are stimulating to be with and you radiate a great deal of energy.

As a lover of the personality color red, you are ambitious and competitive and like to be the winner - you are achievement orientated and second place is not good enough for you. With you it is all or nothing.

You usually gain the respect of others quite easily with your practical and grounded attitude and ability to set boundaries.

Lovers of red are the explorers and pioneers of the world, the entrepreneurs and builders who like to be first in discovering new physical realms.

If you favor the personality color red you have a passion and enthusiasm for life and are not afraid to pursue your dreams and goals.

You are impulsive - you should count to 10 before reacting to situations as it is in these situations that your anger and aggression often appears.

You are always in a hurry, wanting to do everything right now. Patience is not one of your strong points.

You do not procrastinate - you never put off until tomorrow what you can do today.

You are a hard worker and you enjoy physical labor and working with your hands.

Red people can be aggressive and easy to anger, often exhibiting a violent temper - this is negative passion and energy. You flare up instantaneously but calm down quite quickly once you get it out of your system and then forget it ever happened - you do not hold a grudge.

Lovers of red are probably not particularly spiritual or religious - however if you do participate in religious activities it is the physical customs and rituals that you are drawn to, the singing, Communion and other rituals, organizing the church fete and other fundraising activities, the physical part of being there. Red people like to take care of the nuts and bolts, the nitty-gritty, the practical aspects and physical preparation of organizing an event.

You have a strong need for power and control which is connected to your basic survival instincts.

You can be somewhat of a know-it-all, not wanting to appear unintelligent or ignorant.

You are a good worker, although not necessarily a good boss - your aggressive nature doesn't serve you well in management positions. Because you are action orientated you are good at meeting deadlines and getting the job done at the right time.

You can be quite determined when you want something, but tend to have a short attention span, moving on to the next best thing when you quickly get bored with the previous one - you want it all and you want it now!

You may have an over active ego and appear over confident with a super inflated sense of your own worth.

Your deepest need is for physical achievement, fulfillment and satisfaction and to experience life through the five senses.

Some of the points r kind of accurate, hax! fun~~ what am i trying to do actually? to understand ME better i guess.. growing up is a process n somehow someday,u will reach a point where u will ask, who i really am,what hv i been doing n,what do i really want~~ tats when, psychology applies =)

wanted to post a quite emo post today actually, but nah~ forget bout it..

just wanna say, i know, im blessed =))) a lot of ppl passing by my life n gv me pretty good advice lately, it feels weird but im certainly very thankful! 5am already.. guess it will b another insomnia night... sweet dreams guys!

Im the Explorer,which r u??

Read about this the other time thru one magazine..

quite interesting,so felt lk sharing them~~

run thru the test n im the Explorer.. worst match, the Director..muahahah!!

quite fun though, find out which r u by some tests!!! (online)

from http://www.onlinedatinghelp.co.uk/blog/builder-negotiator-explorer-director/

The Builder

Chemical in charge: Serotonin (associated with sociability and feelings of calm)
Personality: Calm, managerial, conscientious, home-oriented but social
Best match: The Explorer
Worst match: The Director

Sociable & Loyal
Builders are considered to be calm and with good people skills, open for relationships, affable and social. Their personality is influenced by the chemical called serotonin. The reason why Builders tend to be successful in most social situations is that they find them fun and relaxing. They simply love socialising and often have a close circle of friends as duty and loyalty are amongst the traits they value very highly. Their loyalty to friends and family is often absolute.

Sensible & Straightforward
The Builder personality types are considered to be careful and cautious people, they don’t often plunge head over heels into new adventures. They are not dreamers with their heads in the clouds – they think in concrete terms, they’re well-prepared and not inclined to make the same mistake twice. Builders also tend to be very sensible when it comes to business and money matters. They like to feel themselves safe and secure, therefore things are always in perfect order around them and they plan well ahead.

Dependable but not so Flexible
Traditions and social norms are important for Builders, they hold moral standards in a very high regard. They are not easily bored or distracted, that allows them to be methodical, dependable and hard-working. Other people tend to turn to them in times of need, they truly can be regarded as the pillars of the community. At the same time, due to their ‘pernicketiness’ of doing things the ‘right way’, they can be hostile towards other solutions. They are considered to be very headstrong, even stubborn people who will not easily let go of their plans. Their need for order, rules and regulations is not the best basis for spontaneity. They can quite easily delve into being pessimistic, too rigid and take things way too literally.

A Popular & Caring Contributor
All that aside, Builders can still be considered to care a lot about the community and people around them. They are hardworking, practical and easy to make friends with, which makes them popular with other people.

The Negotiator

Chemical in charge: Oestrogen (associated with intuition and creativity)
Personality: With good social skills, imaginative, idealistic and sympathetic
Best match: Good with all types
Worst match: None

The Oestrogen Factor
Negotiators’ personality traits have been linked with the primary female sex hormone oestrogen. However, this does not mean that men have nothing to do with that hormone – there are lots of male Negotiators as well. It doesn’t even mean there’s something especially feminine about them.

Mind Readers
The main characteristics of Negotiators is the way they deal with people and social situations – as the name also suggests. They are simply very good with people, as they seem to have a strong insight to their minds and hearts, almost instinctively knowing what others are thinking and feeling. They are good at reading facial expressions, gestures, postures, tone of voice.

Introspective and Self Analytical
As much as they’re interested in other people, they are also interested in reading themselves, which makes them quite introspecitve and self-analytical. They like very much looking behind the reasons of their actions, words and thoughts, finding motives, figuring out hidden meanings etc. Also, in a relationship they have a tendency to go to great lengths to deeply analyse the strengths and weaknesses of their match.

Flexible and Broad Minded
All this doesn’t mean they’re rigid in their ways – on the contrary, they are mentally quite flexible people, weighing up all the pros and cons before reaching any decision. This gives them an opportunity to choose between a lot of different ways how to react to something and how to proceed. The Negotiator’s way of thinking is never linear, rather more contextual, expanding into width rather than length. This makes them very tolerant towards any kind of ambiguity.

Good with Words and People
Negotiators are considered to be intuitive and creative people, with a solid and theoretical way of thinking. They are good with words – fluent, rapid, innovative, with broad vocabulary. As they are also very agreeable, easily accommodating, compassionate, social-minded and patient, they are considered to be friendly, authentic, earnest and diplomatic people.

It isn’t all Good…
However, there are some downsides to their ways. Because of their inability to be confrontational, they can sometimes appear spineless. Instead of putting their foot down, they can turn to secretive means, operating behind someone’s back. While they are pondering the means of action, the situations can run past them, sometimes getting out of their hands. The careful reconstruction of every step, word, action and thought in a romantic relationship, going over and over it to come up with even the most subtle meaning behind them can be quite suffocating and tiresome.

The Explorer

Chemical in charge: dopamine (associated with curiosity and spontaneity)
Personality: Spontaneous, risk-loving, curious, adaptable
Best match: The Builder
Worst match: The Director

Risk Takers
Explorers are ruled by the brain chemical dopamine, which is often associated with the tendency to seek novelty and take risk, often spontaneously. Explorers love to seek out new experieneces, go everywhere, see everything – they are never bored. Always up for an adventure, they tend to seek excitement, discover new ideas, meet new people and put strange theories into practice. They are very independent people who don’t much look for other people’s advice and guidance.

No Time to Waste
Explorers live a rich and varied life bas they’re such energetic, even restless people who regard time in a different way than most others. They move fast. Their natural curiosity draws them to all kinds of different situations where they can come up with new ideas, practice their theories and generate new thoughts. Shifting their attention from one problem to another is not a problem for them, they are always looking for more thrills and excitement in their lives. Their adventurous streak sometimes makes them take unnecessary risks and mleaving them prone to breaking the law more often than other types would, but with a little help from the people around them, they can also make excellent scientists and athletes – they certainly have the hunger and devotion that these jobs need.

The Good & Bad Points of Explorers
Explorers are very likeable people with generous mind and happy attitude to life and people around them. They have a playful nature, they can be sensual and enjoy life to the point of being hedonistic. At the same time, they are unpredictable and hard to rely upon, which does not make them a good marriage material. They are not prone to routine and don’t tolerate boredom very well. Their impatience can make them selfish companions as they don’t generally bend themselves to anyone’s rules. (so true) ><

The Director

Chemical in charge: testosterone (associated with independence and rational thinking)
Personality: Inventive, focused, logical, direct and daring
Best match: The Negotiator
Worst match: The Builder

Men Only?
Contrary to the Negotiators, Directors are ruled by the male sex hormone testosterone. Again, although it’s a male hormone, it’s shared by both sexes. Women Directors certainly aren’t rare!

Tough Cookies
The Directors chief characteristic is competitiveness. It is important for them to be the best in everything they endeavour and usually they can achieve that too. Pragmatic, tough-minded and decisive, Directors are never taken aback by difficult situations. On the contrary, they can keep a level head and make up their minds quickly, even if they are faced with difficult choices.

The Small Stuff
Directors love rational analysis, logical reasoning and objectivity and are not prone to fall into any traps. They tend to be attentive, paying a lot of attention to details and often focus on the minutiae details of their life. This makes their life easier while they are heading towards that specific goal and they rarely waste time on their way to reaching it.

To Boldly Go…
Director’s employ theoretical ways of thinking, they are not afraid to come up with new ideas and work their way to their solution. If that means they have to make unpopular decisions, so be it. Dangerous ways don’t stifle them at all. Their persistence is often the key to their success.

Multi Talented
Directors don’t have problems with understanding how machines work or systems operate, which makes them good with computers. Good maths and biology skills give them frequent opportunities to succeed in the worlds of finance, medicine or architecture, but they can be good at sports or music as well. Even if their interests are narrow, they tend to pursue them deeply and thoroughly.

Cold and Distant
However, Directors are sometimes considered to be cold and calculating people who would rather work to reach to their goal, irrespective of the people that need to be trampled upon to get to the goal. Their social skills are not great and they rarely make efforts to seem more social or affable. They can appear distant and cold and only tend to please those who might be useful to them.

Two Sides of the Director
Directors’ success can make them overly confident, which can result in arrogance. Their preciseness and punctuality can seem uncompromising and their forthrightness rude. Also, because they don’t tend to ponder over things, they can miss the nuances of social situations and personal feelings. But at the same time they are dedicated, loyal and interested in sharing their ideas, which means Directors make close friends. They can be very protective of those they love.

which is y im never good at ppl who comment a lot about me n bossing around~shiu!~go away!! haha!!~

Done~

hey guys~~it's me again, feel lk blogging here =))

how have you been lately?

well, if u have spoken to the current me, u would have known, im not that well ><

rmb the toxic ppl that i mentioned? well, cant get rid of them, instead it's been haunting n poisoning my mind so badly that everything just feel lk it had gone wrong someway n i couldnt help but thinking to quit like, now...! everyday work is lk, a new issue to deal with...

of course, that's not what i like to do, what i used to do... though... i may have always kinda like to runaway from stuff, slaps* quite a low self esteem girl here i realized ><

anyway, yea, i started to wonder like, what am i doing here, did i make a terrible mistake? have i done this just so i can prove someone wrong, just so i can make other ppl's dream come true

started to think wat im doing now is...nothing~ handle things tat i do, sometimes make me think tat im more than that, etc etc........... n of course, the very bad breakout, just make my mood swings~

'Dont go into a false life just bcuz u're afraid to enter a real one..' made me wondered~

is it me, or really, ppl can just be so sure of their choice in life.. which is false n real? which is just 'safe n secure' but not what u enjoyed? which is 'risky' but always happy to do~

opps~shiu~~~ too much!

soOO,i decided to STOP it.. n grab a book to read =)

couple of minutes ago... i started to pen down, my 2012 resolutions~~ yeah i know, it came kinda late but guess what? it's a whole pile of list here..

i have my whole yr planned, of the aims to achieve, the holiday to have fun with~

why, do i need to be upset n lost at the first place again? LOL~

guess sometimes we do have an answer in the heart, we do know what to do... just that, we dont wanna face it.. maybe, not facing it just by myself..

but,who would care right? =P

so yea, feeling a lot better here..

probably if u're lost in life just like i did, writing down what u wanna do might really help...

for now, stay focus on WHAT YOU WANT! the rest, ought not to b concern about, for, it will turn out to be perfect!! =)

good thing, not gonna whine over fb anymore (i hope), so some ppl can get a peace of mind, hahahah~

Anyhoo, DO,

trust ME, trust YOU!~

Good luck folks!~

n, have a good night!~ =)))

Food for thoughts

Frankfurt Sunrise~~~

Anyway,

Was wondering....

Dear Malaysians that currently working in overseas,
WHY do we have to stay in other ppl's countries, feeling sad sometimes to be away from home, just to take advantage over the currency exchange to save up money?

Do we, have no confidence in ourselves that despite money is abundant everywhere, that we just dont entrust that we can be able to grab them..
and, make the 'lousy politics' as a good excuse to escape?

R we all running away from the responsibilities to our home country,
and r we running away from believing ourselves?!

When we say things like,
Msia's going down, we wouldnt have great future in there,
the money overseas is real good
Ppl actually do know how to appreciate our talent elsewher~

Do we just dont trust that we r gonna SHINE among the rest?
And that we rather choose to give in, be in a part of life where we might not belong to, be in mediocrity in other's land to fulfill and get the rewards that you dont have the confident that u would gain by making your way in Msia?

Sometimes i really do wonder WHY?
Why the trend of freshgrads all go this way, having a mindset that,'I must get out of the land, at least Sg, I must start exploring, getting more opportunities~
Is our homeland really that bad?
If it is, you and I both know why..
cuz, we never gave it a chance..
and, we never gave us a try too~

I may not be in the best position to say a thing..
MayB, if i were in the same situation, i would have the same thoughts
Was reading the book saying, Stop allowing negative ppl & disappointments & inconveniences defeat YOU
hence, it kinda makes me thought lk, i sort of gave in to the too many negative ppl back then... too many disappointments, too many inconveniences..
and it so happened at that point of the time, the dream make it way through to be true..
but yea..a very good way to reflect what had happened..

mayb to those who still considering WHERE to,
hope, this may be something for u to consider.....
But really, my main point is,
DO believe in YOURSELF.. We r gonna SHINE!

ciao for now, just a thought at a glimpse =)