We can control our feelings...I CAN!

Hey followers,hows life everybody?

i'll tell u hows mine.. =)

for the couple of days this few weeks, i've been feeling awful bout life..it's like really,waking up feeling all tired, shagged n miserable.. no kidding~

i frequently asked myself what hv i done to my own health, sacrificing it for the job im having, worth it?

truth is, it's festive season these days n i cant help missing my life back then.. my friends, my birth place..really, dunno how many times hv they post up the gathering meet up, n im lk...don ever need to think bout it =(

u know what? the new yr night itself, i finish off my dinner n on the way back to home, i walked, n cried all the way.. i cant help.. reached back home, thank God one of the girl has came back n we had lk pillow talk.. n we made a review for the year of 2011.. n i feel, it's a failure, for that time of the moment..

recalling how i used to work back then, the ppl tat we attract when we hv positive vibes, ppl constantly charm by ur personality, give u name cards so that u can keep in touch with them, good opportunities if ther's a chance u feel lk working for them..those things, havent been happening lately..what happened huh Shuang? hmm..

remember we watch HIMYM n ther's a comment, 'u cant go back to the past just because it's safe n secure,u cant go back just because the future seems scary'..

think i hv forgotten i used to like to think,u need to let urself into uncomfortable situations,thats when u put urself into challenge n that's when life's worthwhile..

honestly, i hv lost all my passion for work.. even if the few days ago, someone complement me in front of my 'boss' i would juz say thank you n walk off, not willing to make further conversations, not feeling great cause i dont feel i did any good anymore..i juz,follow the flow, do what i was suppose to do, what's inside?nothing much left but feel lk wanna leave already..

truth is, the TOXIC people has been around me these days, we alwez been discussing bout them leaving.. n truth is, im all greedy n think tat i deserve better all the time..

You can feel UP one moment,n DOWN then next...

where has my drives gone?

think, it may b best if i get away from toxic ppl, i wish them well but need to remind myself, the life they want is not wat i wan..

need to get more back to the me, the me that always feel very grateful for being here, the me that used to be happy n willing to try out everything..

n Clement if u're reading this, i wanna change away of the title of emo queen.. dont wanna be anymore =P

n ms big head prawn..hmm~~~ how a great way to start of the new yr..i mean, really, the first flight out of the yr, ad reminds me,u know wat shuang, dont be careless anymore~ n, good rite?i wont repeat that for the rest of the year..

anyhoo..if u're just like me, stop feeling bad about myself.. u know wat?just bcuz im that careless, i hv few sets of makeup items, even toothpaste, dunno how many times i need to buy them in a yr..muahaha! but it's fine..so long as u can accommodate ur ownself, find a way, an alternatives, get more of precautions, things will turn out alright..

n seriously, i still havent find a solution to the nametag tat i hv lost..but,be it good or bad, im ready =)

waking up feeling lk watching one of this,

thank you Joel, love u always!~ cuz we love God always!~~

it's new year n honestly, i dont hv much plans ahead, im literally a lost sheep by now...

but i know for now,

n i wanna be happy, for today, for the rest of the year, no matter what happen!

n that shall be the new yr's resolution..!

should be in one of ur list too ppl!!

opps,not to forget, i wanna love u back, my job =))

good luck n stay happy =)))))

Let's talk about love~

being in Maldives....seeing all the love birds kinda like a wake up call lk.. y am i still single? am i really enjoying single life? LOL..
this thing has been put aside by me for bout 2 yrs already..wao~yea, im quite surprised it's 2 yrs already.....
Love is never easy.. relationships r never easy..not to say juz simply with ur own partner.. probably with ur family members, friends, etc..ther're a lot to learn..
growing up in an Asian background, being not very well in expressing each other, it's certainly not good n healthy for a good relationship.. took some break to really learn to start loving my family members, act lk a grown up, which is sth i alwez cant wait to achieve back then.. whether or not my effort was appreciated, sometimes, i do not know the ans too... i juz know i've tried my best to shower my love..but still,not being able to stay by their side,sometimes,how much can i really give?
still,to me i think it's alwez good if even though u gain nothing from wat u hv gv, at least, ppl appreciate tat..right?

Would u, believe that some place in this world, ther's actually someone out there, that share the same interest lk u do, have the same kind of thinking lk u do, been doing n feeling the same things lk u do???
wonder has this person kinda appear in my life...
n if he does, tat would probably b God's gift... n, is that what we called soul mate? hmm~~
but then again, two person tat is so similar...works??

Ppl, if u're still single out there juz lk i do, all the best in hunting for the one =)
n if u're ad attached, please appreciate him/her each days 'Dont take things for granted' is alwez sth very important in a relationship i think~ still learning~~
remember as well, those who may hv failed in love, that, sometimes, ppl juz slowly walk out from ur life.. without intention, of course u wont get to realize it... n it's alright because each days, we going through diff things, there're diff stages in life, tat slowly makes u to who u wanna be.. when he/she went to the other direction, when ther's lack of communication, things happen..
but, good thing is, ther will be ppl slowly going into ur life as well~~
just, be patient =))

Ciao~

Ends with the song,
Let's talk about love~


perfect lyrics,
Everywhere I go all the places that I've been
Every smile is a new horizon on a land I've never seen
There are people around the world - different faces different names
But there's one true emotion that reminds me we're the same...
Lets talk about love

From the laughter of a child to the tears of a grown man
There's a thread that runs right through us all and helps us understand
As subtle as a breeze - that fans a flicker to a flame
From the very first sweet melody to the very last refrain...

Lets talk about love
Lets talk about us
Lets talk about life
Lets talk about trust
Lets talk about love

It's the king of all who live and the queen of good hearts
It's the ace you may keep up your sleeve - 'til the name is all but lost
As deep as any sea - with the rage of any storm
But as gentle as a falling leaf on any autumn morn...

Lets talk about love - it's all were needin'
Lets talk about us - it's the air we're breathin'
Lets talk about life - I wanna know you
Lets talk about trust - and I wanna show you
Lets talk about love

Taboo in love

So i watched some documentaries lately and came across...Objectum sexuality~~

yea, despite being gay laz tim which was a big taboo,n now it seems lk most of the society hv kinda accept that, there goes Objectum sexuality~~~ @@

so what's that????

basically it's a human being fall for an object.. yea, no kidding, the guy was literally kissing, hugging, and, make love with his car.....also may b sth lk masturbation, details, hv no idea ><

n the girl who had fall in LOVE with walls, actually sleep with one piece of the building each night... same, make love..

the psychologist actually make a research n found out those ppl,most of them hv a background that's lk some sort whereby they r lack in love..being sexually abused, cheated, etc..

n yea, there're certain part in the world where, sexual surrogate is actually legal~

they call that therapeutic sessions n towards the end of the lesson, real action is involved..

So..

What's wrong with the world??

can u or can u not accept that? hmm~~~

n yea, im bored......for now~~~ too many pieces, too many scales..!

wanna watch lots of movies!! but, all alone =(( never ever watch a movie alone, dont want to either~

Wicked is in SG since Dec!! no company either..

aihhhHH~ depressing..muahahahha!

Joel used to say, if u feel lk u're alone, if u're sad n depressed, dont juz sit at home and feel sorry for urself! go out and get some friends, go out and get some life!

hahaha~~ haih~~~

One night in Beijing~~

Currently fall in love to go over China..of course no way it's bcuz of the food..it's because of Sofitel!!! love their rooms..dont mind to make them mine or staying there lk for long =)))

after work, having to rest in a very nice hotel room, get a soak in the bathtub, have a nice meal, rest, and get a nice massage, and sleep through the night..i mean, it's been awhile since i really sleep through or had a good night sleep for long d... so yea, loved it! love their way of massage..! but then again, dont let ur husband to go for it on their own...i mean, really, cannot be trusted, LOL!



that's the hall way~


time for dinner~
the cozy side of the room

the view~



the toilet bathtub with waterproof TV~

time to sleep~
not to forget a good breakfast b4 work =)

had dinner with the girls the night b4 heading to work..n we were saying bout the time when i went to Shanghai n got food allergy.. couldn't imagine tats ad one n a half yr bac already~~time flies =(
if i were to recall back how it's like to have nearly lost my life in a foreign country, n hv yet to do a lot of things tat i wanted..it's indeed very scary~
that tim of the moment i just rmb i could feel my heartbeat,slow n pumping hard..couldn't be able to see, just voice of doctor asking nurse to drag me in cuz i may not make it d~~i was literally praying to God..
n the best part, i recovered hours later and get back to work the next day.. that's how food allergy is..either u get cured within that critical few hrs, if not, it may be fatal..
guess that's parts n puzzles in life that makes u grow..makes u know what is important~
what makes who i am today..
so harlo~~im not a person who dont care bout lots of things, but really, life is too short for u to plan n only go for it..u will never be 100% ready for certain things, most importantly,u need to start off with something..anything that u feel lk doing, go for it! and be BOLD and be CONFIDENT! that's how i always live my life......
but very sad to say, they r still very messy now..n that im still hiding n letting the flow taking over =P

anyways..going back to home in CNY =)) best gift ever! Jan's going to be good.. time to explore more of SG! time to love my job more.. time to learn to love? =)
yea, y do i have to say to love the job more..well, just got accused by someone that i said sth which i didn't~~ in the end of the 15 mins conversation, couldnt control n fought back.. that's when someone taught me, treat them as lk ur partner.. if u ends up with an argument, stop fighting, say the facts, explain urself n kept quiet~ something quite deep to learn.. so yea,still learning =)

guess what the good news? i've got 97 in my G5 theory exam!! =)))

well for most of the one who had lk G8,etc ,etc, will be lk.. cheh~it's only g5,its only 97...

then again,im still going to give myself a pat on the shoulder and say, job well done!!

it's sth i didnt expect to come..the week b4 the exam im still lk a lost sheep..really couldnt tell how it's like to have shorten the period of practicing, of work, of prac exam the mth b4, of not being able to focus cuz of jet lag..of everythings, it's all worthwhile, simply because thats sth i love to do =))

AGAIN
每天叫醒大家的，不是闹钟，而是梦想～～～

AZA AZA!!~ gambate everybody! =)

Sth i dunno

had very little time for napping then off to work~
overnight so most of them r sleeping..thank God someone had a muscle cramp n came to talk to me..nice way to spend time with =)

sth i may not know about my hometown Pg, ther's an air force station of Royal Malaysian Air Force actually in Butterworth itself.. what i shame, i need a Australian to tell me so ><
RAF->RAAF->RMAF
now, As of October 2008, the Australian Defence Force continues to maintain a presence at RMAF Butterworth as part of Australia's commitment to the Five Power Defence Arrangements (FPDA), with No. 324 Combat Support Squadron and a detachment of AP-3C Orion aircraft from No. 92 Wing RAAF being located at the airfield. In addition, the Australian Army maintains an infantry company (designated Rifle Company Butterworth) at Butterworth for training purposes. (wiki)

we then had (science talk) where he mentioned one of the products he came out with, Leimo, a shampoo, was one of those that he felt very proud of.....
n we were talking bout research n stuff =(((((((
kinda stir me a little to think about going back to science.. sth that i thought i was suppose to be in... sth that i used to b interested in~
anyway, learnt a lot by talking to him today... that's what i LOVE about my job.. u can literally just get to talk to any strangers out of the 200-300 ppl.. wasnt that amazing?? =)))

ppl, did u noticed the clock is still ticking?? it's end of NOV already~
when i told me teacher i wil b coming bac for class on 1st of dec, he gave me a look lk, we r so lacking of time ><
I AM SO LACKING OF TIME in a lot of aspects too!!
have u done what u've set back in Jan, 10 mths ago?? honestly, couldnt really rmb what was my new yr resolutions back then, LOL!
but i think.......i kinda did juz let the tim passing by... tsk tsk tsk!

anyway, Lang Lang is coming to SG.. although he's not performing.. but i kinda did went n buy the tix at the very laz min without looking at the price, juz to see him in person..
sometimes i think i really dont do things with very rational thinking..kekeke!
WATEVER =P