The magical world~

yo yo yo~~~ have no idea what brings me here...  but ahem, i feel lk blogging again~
没有想法，有想法又能怎样，只能写部落格整晚～oooo..so sad! hax!!

so anyway, if u hv known, i left my job~
the job that once i was standing there, i feel grateful every sec of having it...
the job tat every time leads me to a new place, my heart juz went speechless..
hv always wanted to travel around..n the very first time i did was when i'm 21 yrs old...my first passport,my first country to singapore~ n since then....it bcame around the world =)
the job that, makes me hv the buying power to b able to own a piano n start off the journey to explore music..
never once this ever appear to me that it would be real...
so yea..... i thank God for every single bit i hv gain in these two yrs.. best yrs in my life i would say~

as much as ther's perks, ther wil also b a downside to it...
think i hv lost much passion to ppl lately..never really wanna commit in a relationship, never hang out much, becoming very self-protected, less patience..
i dont sing much anymore...cant sing well, cant play well....
i hv always thought me as a malaysian like to trouble the mind, a lot....like, it's a small prob then we just like to exaggerate it n live as if tat's the biggest obstacle of all....n act, like u couldnt handle them at all..it's the negative thing tat i've seen how ppl been acting, n i always thought that's like one of the weakness that is really apparent that keeps the country holding back..
but coming here, made me realize, that's not the worse after all..... worse is how the society here, make ppl here couldnt be content about everything they own~ every single day, they would complain bout certain thing..
i mean yea, tats how they improved n make us improve....but, two yrs is enough~
in contrast, im still staying back here..pretty sad for the fact that i've made such a decision..
hopefully,someday i would say, i made a wrong judgement....i said sth wrong back then =)

back to the topic, the Magical World~~~
of course not the one that i've chosen..it was from a book, the magic,that i really wanna share..that starts lk this...
'Rmb when u were a child n u looked at life in total wonder and awe?
Life was magical and exciting, and the smallest things were utterly thrilling to u.
You were fascinated by the frost on the grass, a butterfly flittering thru the air, or any strange leaf or rock on ground.........
.....but somehow as we grew into adults, responsibilities, problems, and difficulties took their toll on us,
we became disillusioned, and the magic we once believed in as children faded and disappeared.'
of course it went on by trying to make us blif the life u live could be magical.. how u could hv live ur life with dreams~
not trying to promote the book anyway, i've stop reading half way....
just would lk to raise a gentle reminder to my dear frenz..tat hv somehow lost hopes in life..
that has lost themselves in the process...
that ended up settle for things tat society make them for...
tat, ended up act lk another person, just so that u think that's a survival skill to blend in the culture..

as i made the decision to quit, i've spoke to quite a number of ppl..some scoldings from ppl i obviously dont admire, some ques been asked..
some goes, 'u must hv gone out of ur mind, do u know how much ppl would give to hv the pay u're having? can u settle for pay cut in future?'
most would ask, 'u hv any plans ahead d?'
of course some would also, be very encouraging =)
n of course ppl in the field would somehow, felt it's quite a big step..

n that made me really like a quote that someone sent to me,
" the Poorest man is whose he only Wealth is Money "

of course i'm not saying money is not important...
growing up in a single parent family, i would say, i'm pretty money minded~
but what disheartened me is when it breaks a relationship, it drifts u apart from the things tat make who u r, it changes ur mind about the good things in life....

so im here, to wish, those that hv advised me on how important it is, to hv financial support, to wish those that may hv been really stress at their present financial status, to find a peace of mind =)
take some time to look around u n b grateful of wat u hv...
ppl always say,life is short~ make the fullest out of it..
i do blif in that!
but at the same time, i also blif life is pretty long....... long enough to make u hv time to explore a lot of things..
if u make money as the only goal, the houses, the cars, etc... that's when u will feel ur life is short~

cheers ppl! have a good day ahead!!

love*