things that u dare not do...

today's first of dec already!!time flies~~but i LOVE this month a lot..!xMaS is COMING!!
and,
i can shop n hv fun for the month n everything will be on sales~!
too bad, im seriously, extremely, terribly bRoKE for the moment...!sigh~
but stil, goin to watch movie tmr~shop next week n bac to pg hv fun wit friends over ther too...!
liek's going to US soon,so going to meet him up~
y everyone's going to US???LOL~
then, goin to fly bac to attend 10am class on mon morning..
might continuously bac for the following weeks~~~how bout tat?muahaha~
im late for class today!30 minutes late...
tats a bit over though, my limit was 15 min previously..n now it's lk half of the class d..grr~
but lec was nice~cuz marks are counted in coursework for today's attendance, not that she din ask for the reason for those who came late, she reminds us must sign for it to get the marks!
n, when i hand in the pop quiz, she asked if i und, n when i say im late n i din know what she taught, she din got mad but immediately show me everthin~she's real nice!!but, y there're so many negative impression bout her from seniors?
wel, at least for what i know she's passionate!
not lk those others, who will got stressed up by juz by markin the reports, who talked lk only few students in front are able to hear her, to be too demanded,etc~
the typical she that i mentioned said she might need to reconsider to pursue her dream as a lecturer in the future after completing her masters...i wish i could tel her, its a yes,she definitely need to reconsider it...at least, i think she's aint ready..not YET!we students are lk tat~unwilling to response, etc..im kinda fed up with the spoon feed attitude too, but what can we really do about that?there're actually tons of ppl who're not willing to change their behavior even though they know its not right..somehow,they don even know how to get things right...we cant change the whole world..but, we can patiently, slowly, guide ppl through..n to me, that's wat lec do..cuz i've seen a lot who did very well in performin tis task..n i salute them!really do...
sorry if i offended anyone~

quite moody nowadays though..
having sleepless night for this few days..kept thinking the same stupid things which are not suppose to pass thru my mind~everything was still so fresh though it actually happened for lk 2 3 yrs ago?
hmm,guess only 2 person will und wat am i talking..first reaction i got from a guy..u're SILLY!
okay,i am..no idea on how to control what i am feeling n thinkin though..
second reaction from a gal..hmm,its ok, it takes time...im like, aiks~~i've took bout one yr already..how long will it takes somemore?i cant wait!!don wan it to bother me that much~~
E.N.D.~

cont with...
things that u dare not do in ur life~
guys,frankly speaking, how many things in ur life that u don dare to gv a damn to try?
to me,ther're aplenty....*ok,i aint coward though*
hmm..for eg. don dare to speak what's in my mind sometim,knowing that my words might be harsh~
afraid to try out alcoholic drinks, smoke, etc..knowing that i might bcum someone else after i tried them..
don dare to try up something real hard, afraid that i might fall in the end..
not letting myself to try up my own dream as well, afraid that someday i might regret for what i had decided..
even in love life too~!
okay,am i a big loser here??
DON WAN me to act that way...

n ern..yea, i said, i thought, perhaps someday, maybe i wil meet u again~
fine, someone heard that n it comes true now...i met him everyday, but only to realize i aint ready to face it yet..!
full with guilt..meanwhile, there will be some period of tim when i self doubt whether my decision was really right?
but, knowing that i cant b able to gv my 100%, cant be able to start to trust... it's aint fair for both party...temporary, that's the best that i can do..
i know, i und, n i can see from those eyes...but i CANT!
sigh~~
wel, what the book tells me today?
there're too many counterfeit forms of love and too many ppl who say,"I love you bcuz i need you", or "i love you bcuz i wan you!".
such possesive forms of love are not real
they seek to get something from the other person instead of giving something.
so, learn to laugh~when u laugh, u can love, bcuz then u're loving ppl bcuz they need u and the joy u can bring to their life~~