updates~

happy day~happy shuang wanna post somethin again...
continue telling bout the interview yesterday...u know wat??in the morning when i was waiting for the lift to come i saw rainbow~~~~very nice one! to what i thought it shall be a great day, very good luck for my interview as well...

beautiful isnt it??

However, im soOO late for class due to the laz min preparation of all the documents n bring along sport shoes cuz practical follows on...hence, decided to tk taxi~well, it's nothing special...but u know wat?forget to bring me purse again..n that i only realize it after get into the taxi..ok, fine, not the first time either...recall back how i borrow $$ from a stranger in the bus..hmm, so i hv to go bac to prima n walk out again~since the day i stay in prima,guess it's more than 5 tim i forgotten my purse, excluding the one wher i forgot my hp, y so careless??grr....apart from that, the day was juz as nice as the rainbow,haha! Interview went well too. juz that i alwez thought somehow my interview session tk less time n less ques wil b ask compared to the others. Hope they will gv me a good news la, since it seems fun to work with them.. If i cant get it means it's time for shuang to really rest d la hor?keke....starting from march, pc fair, lulu c, livita, f&n, johnson & johnson, model, tangs, another pc fair...never stop...will i get mad someday?? definately no la..im stil very well...

a lot of things that i had postponed wher it was suppose to do in that particular day...sadly n deeply disappointed...yes, with frenz as well..those kind of spoon feed attitude, copy paste attitude....im so eager for helps in my studies dy, never thought i still need to help others. Im not somebody who do BIG things u know? i wanna help them but if ppl don wanna self help, there's nothing that i can do...but, juz to slowly lead them, hoping someday they will realize wat is the thing that they suppose to do~~~not worth spoil everything cause of few pieces of paper, i treasure them very much...juz, get furious easily cuz i do care bout them~
tmr start pc fair d er...gotta skip few important classes and have to complete loads of assignments plus reports....so lazy~~~~~~

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift.

To realise the value of one year, ask a student who failed a grade.
To realise the value of one month, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.
To realise the value of one week, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realise the value of one hour, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realise the value of one minute, ask a person who just missed a train.
To realise the value of one second, ask someone who just avoided an accident.
To realise the value of one millisecond, ask the person who won a silver medal at the olympics!

Treasuring every moment that i hv right now...it's simply a gift~

Slowing down....

Energy=currency of life??
Yes, money might make the world go round, but it's the energy that keeps the body hopping to the tune of life...Make no mistake about it, a life without energy is,technically, death. Even at the cellular level, energy is needed to fight off infections and break down toxins in the body. Most of us need to work to earn money, but all of us need to eat to get the energy we need to function every day.
Hence, procrastinating everything....recharging right now...

another interview again tmr.Hope they offer me something good~~if nt, i really wont know whether or not that's the thing that i want...

good luck for myself...and hv a good rest for better challenge! to all of u out ther as well..best of luck!!

Hopes and Dreams..

Met a girl today while working...grr.....can see all the dreams that i wanted is on her..she had all it takes,wanted to be tat way...know i could as long as i work on it too~~sad....anyhow,im heading towards another direction, holding and preserving others' dreams...when ppl say u're suppose to do tis and that,stick to the rules of life and u wil get a better life at the end,mayb even a very good one..well,pactically im one of the followers...couldnt abide the 'rules of life'...dont dare to tk the risk,moreover when u know hv an ability on it...how can u let it go isnt it??frankly speaking,mine was not as big compared to others...simple one but enough to satisfy me. But of course,very risky~kinda worry whether i will regret someday or not...trying to train myself to be a better me right now,cuz im know,its stil not the tim to go for it right now...i juz hv to be patient!when im ready,good things will come~~~right?

today..almost couldnt control myself,feel lk buying things again...terrible.....working for fashion life style company really drives me crazy.Anyway, i've seen so many ppl gals over ther,wearing very nice clothes.A very simple msg but important one to all the girls out there..remember to tk off ur price tags of ur heels b4 u start wearing it ok??it just the same lk u're wearing a shirt with the price tags,or holding a bags with the tags.Not very nice isnt it??

oh yea,tried another restaurant at pavilion...ichiban ramen~its too salty man!at the end couldnt stand it...so,complained to the waiter and did not finish up my food either...well,of course,i did it in a nice way la...ppl only will improve when they receive criticism isnt it??that's what i do believe...and that's why i always wanted ppl around me to think using their own thoughts,do and act correctly~well,if u add less salt mayb its a lot tastier,perhaps numbers of customers will b more in the end?basically doubt bout the taste buds of the chef...perhaps he din really even bother too~~those attitudes...sigh....shown by most malaysians.manalah boleh malaysia improve lk tat???forget bout it~~just kinda fed up cuz gv up my subway and went for such dish only..duh~~~wuahaha!been working for one n half months,most of my dinner is at subway...chic terriyaki~~~tried spicy italian once but still not as good..service is fast, and to me its healthier to eat that compared to others too.... J Co most ppl know d i guess..need not me to explain.. Tony Roma's....er, quite expensive,but can b known to b in the moderate level ba...the meat was really soft,some kind of feeling lk melts when u bite...but then,not hot enough,dunno y,not very nice to me..the size is big,as usual...wong kok..not bad only too,nothing much special to talk about.Wanted to try the desserts ther someday..think is the japanese one..not on working day of course~having desserts alone looks pity as well...Oh yea,there got one shop selling baos..special kind of baos..if its ok mayb will buy it on the last day of my work,keke!! To have lunch and dinner break is all im waiting for everyday in my work. Especially when i back to penang,working there...plenty plenty of dishes i miss so much! working at jusco wangsa,er...mostly the one i wil go is old town...yea,the boring old town~haha! each time also nasi lemak plus ice lemon tea plus a polo bun~~~grr..hungry ler~

k la,just back from work anyway...gtg~

stay tuned for more updates on subway...haha!!

tata~

~Way back into LoVE~~

I've been living with a shadow overhead

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I've been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on


I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need them again someday

I've been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love


I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

I know that it's out there

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction

And I'm open to your suggestions

I just wanna find my way back into love~~

Bad part of shuang..........

yea, i know human are not born to be perfect...we got good n bad side of us,of our heart...only depends how u control and wan urself to be...
shuang notice herself,bad part of herself...from what ppl used to say me right now is,asking too much for perfection...though i still dunno whether mine thought is right or theirs..but i do know everyone's degree of perfection is different, that's y there're contradictions...and i do know,what i wan from myself could not be what i wan others to be....i can see from ppl's eyes, ppl's thought...not very comfortable with that when i view it that way huh...mayb i shud juz b normal human being..hahax!

hmm,infected by flu today er.....though that day when i broke down,purposely made myself sick...but this is not i wanted,juz wanna hv fever ma...y gv me cough + flu??sad....
recovering soon~~
oh yea, by the way, met jing hong yesterday for movie with all my classmates...for the whole yr he's here in kl asked me out for so many times,tis is the only tim i met him..muahaha~~anyway,he grow up lu...thoughts n everything also more mature dy..juz like any others from jit sin...best of luck for him at england...!hope i can meet him b4 his flight at sept again..

don feel like working ler leh, cant learn anything from there anymore...not a very good behaviour..alwez do things half way...trying not to think so right now..juz wanna do wat i shall do..be passionate!!
no worry, be happy!~~

不明白。。。。

幸福永远对我很吝啬。。总爱在我身上计时。。
昨天虽然很开心，但不敢与其他人分享，因为我好害怕，这瞬间无法长久。。
但，为何事情还是会发生呢？？每当我有了，觉得一切都足够时，你总爱把它给夺走。。。
如果我的这一切需要代价，那我什么都不要了。。。
如果我是真的没资格开心，那给我个答案，我就不需要数次被受伤害。。。
心累了。。。坚强，逞强，不简单。。。。

To my dearest uncle and nephew....rest in peace....
when i got to know bout the death of my nephew,i couldnt control my tears..could u image a person,18 yrs old........pass away just like that??what is going to happen to his beloved father and mother who used to love him so so much?what will happen to his only brother that so used to his presence??life is sO fragile...guys,what i can say is,please appreciate every one around you...i cant help myself right now...tired dy...

To my cousin..hope she wont involve and announce unguilty by the court...

Everything will be alright....
i hope....

Convo today...good n bad~~~

At the very first point, dont really lk convo ceremony...the only thing which is important is the photography session tat wil then represents two yrs of ur study in diploma...Anyhow, met back arshana~~happy~~though din chat much, but at least get to see how she looks lk nowadays..kinda miss her presence at tarc. As usual,taken the scroll then tk pic n bac home....but,mood was spoil when bro say wanna back home earlier..ended up i din tk pic with group one students which r mostly meant all by my 2 yrs of study....n, my sis, which suppose to b the camera man din tk the pic well..sadly isnt it?its lk i go there for nothing....
but,surprisingly receive flower....should b the first time to get it from a guy,never expected it anyway~~kinda waste huh,don't und y girls like to receive flowers..but it's a matter of what the heart wanna speaks..thanks to u~

And, thanks to my mum n sis...i know they love me very much...

but,another thing that i don lk convo is.....i can see im lack of something at tis moment...n sometim,ppl do remind u cause they din know bout it...n made me dunno how to ans their ques...how great will that be if u are ther...where u can see this life that u've brought in to the world hv ad grown up to be a better person n she had graduated...where i can see ur smile n listen again u saying my results was not good but it's enough for u...u're happy with me...anyhow,u will alwez in my heart...daddy,i miss u....much!misses those days u tel stories bout how frog jump onto diff types of leaves and ask me to tel u again in ur shoulder,misses those days that u only keep quiet but supporting me from bhind,misses those days when i can say good night to u every night,misses those days u wake me up on weekends and,the way u wipe my tears when i cry...hmm...nvm ler~shuang wil stay tough~~~today wan happy happy de...!
din finish up my reports yet er,tmr need to work some more...plenty of stuf to b done...but,at tis point i feel very very grateful~mum going to buy me a new lappie tis mon ler...stil considering wan her to buy for me or not....mao dun~~~keke...k la,late late ler,better finish up my stuf~~nite nite~~~

A Talk by Ong Ka Ting

received a call this morning from ms Yap, asking me to go for a talk saying tat its compulsory..To what i thought,it's somethin related to the scholarships, they going to explain further, etc...
But, when i reached college hall only then i realized it's pack with ppl, impossible that they r all holders right? hmm...then sat down, msg chee yee only know we r suppose to b ther bcuz we represent something..well,no harm listening since im there~
it's a talk by Ong Ka Ting, the one who chose to gv up MCA after 308. Maybe to most of u he is a great man who can leads well and could do something very different than what we can do. But, the one i saw at that moment was like a man who had already tired of his life, already put away all his hopes and dreams...he was surely very very determined when he was young, firm and full of strengths and spirits~but is the one i saw still the same like what he was??

Anyhow..he did answered some questions and say few sentences which are still fresh in my mind...i.e. for example, when we ask, why izit so many politicians not doing their jobs well, not taking their responsibilities and are not as humble as we thought??? he said 'well, there's nothing to be blame..we cant blame the bad one, cause they are given a chance to do so...the one we have to blame, is the good one, who actually blif they have the ability to do something, or should say they really can do something to make a difference. They are the one who dont dare to step up and do something for the society, keeping quiet and standing aside makes the bad one tk them for granted.' true...when u know u can do something but just sit aside and stare at what's happening, why blame others for not doing a good job??

Apart from Tan Sri Ong, the one that really impressed me was the students..u know, how can they be so sensitive to the current issues and to raise out those queries that goes through their mind? how can they be so resourceful and daring?? but of course, most of them are mass com students as well as students from business school. I can hardly see any students from CB went there, not even that they know bout such talk too i guess~ im one of them anyway,keke!

Today finished up the morale presentation, din really do well~wonder where goes my memory cells..maybe its not activated for long time dy...stil, tryin my best to find the pause, i pause that i need~~

Great day,happy~~

Another starting point

When two person which has not much as what we say in mandarin '缘分‘ it will then make a big circle marry go round and back to the same point where things havent really started. When u reach this point, will u actually thought it's actually a waste of time to do all this?those heartache,tears,laughters,just nothing at the end. I draw my own circle of my life, and u get into that circle, but soon u just walk away without saying a words. Want everything back but u right now. On the journey, the way back into ~love~, need not necessarily what that is in your mind right now. In can be family, friends, or loving myself. Had someone scolded me coward because i dont dare to accept his love,neh,not really...long time not being single dy,mayb im not very good in rejecting someone ended up don't really wanna b his fren too ler~we can fall at times, what we have to do is stand up and be tougher and work harder.Nothing wrong when u do make mistakes but its wrong if u surrender so fast.Life still goes on...but i do wonder,lk what ms lim did said,now u both be together, think bout wat age u wanna get married and think bout how many yrs b4 u get married,will that actually works?kinda make sense for me...do change and learn something from each break,one teach me to study harder one teach me to work harder. Yea,work harder tis issue...its lk i cant pull the brake to ask myself to stop ler...been working while studyin for half yr dy,cant really control myself,though did promised myself to study and concentrate in adv year..someone might laughing at the other end,saying why i work and spend it's just like gaining nothing.true!but wrong as well...only i know what am i doing.though i don't really know what i wan deep down inside my heart,haha!but at least, at least i wanna try to do everythin,see where's my limit....saw one phrase saying 人是没有边缘的，除非你限制你自己..working for Tangs and attending lecturers still,quite boring leh...i wan more!more.....
Anyhow,working at Tangs will make us,most of us envy of their life style~what the customers have to do is just request it,or probably their responsibility is to help their parents to spend some money...life is certainly not fair isnt it??haha,cheers~~be happy no worries~

每朵花都有盛开的那一刻。我们是该共存。
它可能比你开的美多了。但，何人可以解释美是什么啊？
如果美的定义只有一个，有可能吗？
就如聪明的定义。。。考好成绩就是聪明？还是有法办赚最多的人才是？
过路人可能会为你浇水，为你施肥，有些会很忍心的把你的子叶给剪掉。
但，花依然会开~
帕孤单的我，依然害怕一个人。
没法咯，只好慢慢加油！

fall for this songs,by clay aiken,The Way...sharing it with all of u~

Theres something bout the way you look tonight, Theres something bout the way that i can't take my eyes off you. Theres
something bout the way your lips invite, maybe its the way that i get nervous when your around. And I want you to be mine
and if u need a reason why,

[Chorus:]
It's in the way that you move me, and the way that you tease me, the way that I want you tonight,
It's in the way that you hold me, and the way that you know me, when I can't find the right words to say,
You feel it in the way, you feel it in the way.

Theres something bout how you stay on my mind, theres something bout the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep Oh girl
no. Maybe its the look you get in your eyes. Oh baby its the way that makes me feel to see you smile. And the reasons they
may change but what i'm feeling stays the same.

[Chorus]

I can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you, you baby.
So don't ask me to describe, I get all choked up inside, just thinking bout the way.

[Chorus]

There's something bout the way you look tonight.
There's nothing more to say then, I feel it in the way.