Let's talk about love~

being in Maldives....seeing all the love birds kinda like a wake up call lk.. y am i still single? am i really enjoying single life? LOL..
this thing has been put aside by me for bout 2 yrs already..wao~yea, im quite surprised it's 2 yrs already.....
Love is never easy.. relationships r never easy..not to say juz simply with ur own partner.. probably with ur family members, friends, etc..ther're a lot to learn..
growing up in an Asian background, being not very well in expressing each other, it's certainly not good n healthy for a good relationship.. took some break to really learn to start loving my family members, act lk a grown up, which is sth i alwez cant wait to achieve back then.. whether or not my effort was appreciated, sometimes, i do not know the ans too... i juz know i've tried my best to shower my love..but still,not being able to stay by their side,sometimes,how much can i really give?
still,to me i think it's alwez good if even though u gain nothing from wat u hv gv, at least, ppl appreciate tat..right?

Would u, believe that some place in this world, ther's actually someone out there, that share the same interest lk u do, have the same kind of thinking lk u do, been doing n feeling the same things lk u do???
wonder has this person kinda appear in my life...
n if he does, tat would probably b God's gift... n, is that what we called soul mate? hmm~~
but then again, two person tat is so similar...works??

Ppl, if u're still single out there juz lk i do, all the best in hunting for the one =)
n if u're ad attached, please appreciate him/her each days 'Dont take things for granted' is alwez sth very important in a relationship i think~ still learning~~
remember as well, those who may hv failed in love, that, sometimes, ppl juz slowly walk out from ur life.. without intention, of course u wont get to realize it... n it's alright because each days, we going through diff things, there're diff stages in life, tat slowly makes u to who u wanna be.. when he/she went to the other direction, when ther's lack of communication, things happen..
but, good thing is, ther will be ppl slowly going into ur life as well~~
just, be patient =))

Ciao~

Ends with the song,
Let's talk about love~


perfect lyrics,
Everywhere I go all the places that I've been
Every smile is a new horizon on a land I've never seen
There are people around the world - different faces different names
But there's one true emotion that reminds me we're the same...
Lets talk about love

From the laughter of a child to the tears of a grown man
There's a thread that runs right through us all and helps us understand
As subtle as a breeze - that fans a flicker to a flame
From the very first sweet melody to the very last refrain...

Lets talk about love
Lets talk about us
Lets talk about life
Lets talk about trust
Lets talk about love

It's the king of all who live and the queen of good hearts
It's the ace you may keep up your sleeve - 'til the name is all but lost
As deep as any sea - with the rage of any storm
But as gentle as a falling leaf on any autumn morn...

Lets talk about love - it's all were needin'
Lets talk about us - it's the air we're breathin'
Lets talk about life - I wanna know you
Lets talk about trust - and I wanna show you
Lets talk about love

Taboo in love

So i watched some documentaries lately and came across...Objectum sexuality~~

yea, despite being gay laz tim which was a big taboo,n now it seems lk most of the society hv kinda accept that, there goes Objectum sexuality~~~ @@

so what's that????

basically it's a human being fall for an object.. yea, no kidding, the guy was literally kissing, hugging, and, make love with his car.....also may b sth lk masturbation, details, hv no idea ><

n the girl who had fall in LOVE with walls, actually sleep with one piece of the building each night... same, make love..

the psychologist actually make a research n found out those ppl,most of them hv a background that's lk some sort whereby they r lack in love..being sexually abused, cheated, etc..

n yea, there're certain part in the world where, sexual surrogate is actually legal~

they call that therapeutic sessions n towards the end of the lesson, real action is involved..

So..

What's wrong with the world??

can u or can u not accept that? hmm~~~

n yea, im bored......for now~~~ too many pieces, too many scales..!

wanna watch lots of movies!! but, all alone =(( never ever watch a movie alone, dont want to either~

Wicked is in SG since Dec!! no company either..

aihhhHH~ depressing..muahahahha!

Joel used to say, if u feel lk u're alone, if u're sad n depressed, dont juz sit at home and feel sorry for urself! go out and get some friends, go out and get some life!

hahaha~~ haih~~~

One night in Beijing~~

Currently fall in love to go over China..of course no way it's bcuz of the food..it's because of Sofitel!!! love their rooms..dont mind to make them mine or staying there lk for long =)))

after work, having to rest in a very nice hotel room, get a soak in the bathtub, have a nice meal, rest, and get a nice massage, and sleep through the night..i mean, it's been awhile since i really sleep through or had a good night sleep for long d... so yea, loved it! love their way of massage..! but then again, dont let ur husband to go for it on their own...i mean, really, cannot be trusted, LOL!



that's the hall way~


time for dinner~
the cozy side of the room

the view~



the toilet bathtub with waterproof TV~

time to sleep~
not to forget a good breakfast b4 work =)

had dinner with the girls the night b4 heading to work..n we were saying bout the time when i went to Shanghai n got food allergy.. couldn't imagine tats ad one n a half yr bac already~~time flies =(
if i were to recall back how it's like to have nearly lost my life in a foreign country, n hv yet to do a lot of things tat i wanted..it's indeed very scary~
that tim of the moment i just rmb i could feel my heartbeat,slow n pumping hard..couldn't be able to see, just voice of doctor asking nurse to drag me in cuz i may not make it d~~i was literally praying to God..
n the best part, i recovered hours later and get back to work the next day.. that's how food allergy is..either u get cured within that critical few hrs, if not, it may be fatal..
guess that's parts n puzzles in life that makes u grow..makes u know what is important~
what makes who i am today..
so harlo~~im not a person who dont care bout lots of things, but really, life is too short for u to plan n only go for it..u will never be 100% ready for certain things, most importantly,u need to start off with something..anything that u feel lk doing, go for it! and be BOLD and be CONFIDENT! that's how i always live my life......
but very sad to say, they r still very messy now..n that im still hiding n letting the flow taking over =P

anyways..going back to home in CNY =)) best gift ever! Jan's going to be good.. time to explore more of SG! time to love my job more.. time to learn to love? =)
yea, y do i have to say to love the job more..well, just got accused by someone that i said sth which i didn't~~ in the end of the 15 mins conversation, couldnt control n fought back.. that's when someone taught me, treat them as lk ur partner.. if u ends up with an argument, stop fighting, say the facts, explain urself n kept quiet~ something quite deep to learn.. so yea,still learning =)

guess what the good news? i've got 97 in my G5 theory exam!! =)))

well for most of the one who had lk G8,etc ,etc, will be lk.. cheh~it's only g5,its only 97...

then again,im still going to give myself a pat on the shoulder and say, job well done!!

it's sth i didnt expect to come..the week b4 the exam im still lk a lost sheep..really couldnt tell how it's like to have shorten the period of practicing, of work, of prac exam the mth b4, of not being able to focus cuz of jet lag..of everythings, it's all worthwhile, simply because thats sth i love to do =))

AGAIN
每天叫醒大家的，不是闹钟，而是梦想～～～

AZA AZA!!~ gambate everybody! =)

Sth i dunno

had very little time for napping then off to work~
overnight so most of them r sleeping..thank God someone had a muscle cramp n came to talk to me..nice way to spend time with =)

sth i may not know about my hometown Pg, ther's an air force station of Royal Malaysian Air Force actually in Butterworth itself.. what i shame, i need a Australian to tell me so ><
RAF->RAAF->RMAF
now, As of October 2008, the Australian Defence Force continues to maintain a presence at RMAF Butterworth as part of Australia's commitment to the Five Power Defence Arrangements (FPDA), with No. 324 Combat Support Squadron and a detachment of AP-3C Orion aircraft from No. 92 Wing RAAF being located at the airfield. In addition, the Australian Army maintains an infantry company (designated Rifle Company Butterworth) at Butterworth for training purposes. (wiki)

we then had (science talk) where he mentioned one of the products he came out with, Leimo, a shampoo, was one of those that he felt very proud of.....
n we were talking bout research n stuff =(((((((
kinda stir me a little to think about going back to science.. sth that i thought i was suppose to be in... sth that i used to b interested in~
anyway, learnt a lot by talking to him today... that's what i LOVE about my job.. u can literally just get to talk to any strangers out of the 200-300 ppl.. wasnt that amazing?? =)))

ppl, did u noticed the clock is still ticking?? it's end of NOV already~
when i told me teacher i wil b coming bac for class on 1st of dec, he gave me a look lk, we r so lacking of time ><
I AM SO LACKING OF TIME in a lot of aspects too!!
have u done what u've set back in Jan, 10 mths ago?? honestly, couldnt really rmb what was my new yr resolutions back then, LOL!
but i think.......i kinda did juz let the tim passing by... tsk tsk tsk!

anyway, Lang Lang is coming to SG.. although he's not performing.. but i kinda did went n buy the tix at the very laz min without looking at the price, juz to see him in person..
sometimes i think i really dont do things with very rational thinking..kekeke!
WATEVER =P

Ma work.....

it's 2 degree out there right now...Sunday again,everything's else r closed..
sth tat i couldnt understand n dont really like...y certain countries,lk Aussie,NZ, hv all the shops closed after 5?y Germany,Switzerland, hv Sun off...y Paris hv only certain period of time when u can get to buy a meal @@

anyway, today's not going to b a happy post....
my work sucks till MAX today....but i dont even know what happened~~
probably i get to go bac pg again??? no kidding..

i rmb the very laz tim i went bac was 3 mths ago...for a week~for the very last day while i depart from the airport to sg,the captain flew over pg bridge..that's when heavy down pour.....the tears from my eyes i mean...n i got very emo for bout a week bac here,tk bac some time to get used to everything again...from then on,i never make the effort to go bac cuz i know how much tat could affect me...
but since im going bac soon..im not so well again =(((
kinda very disappointed with my work today,seriously..
feel lk going to church n cry for hours again....(yea,i did ><)

sigh sigh~get well soon....gonna try harder next sector!

as much as i dont like this feeling,still, i would love to happily say...im going bac home PG!! wait for me right ther =)

someone recommend me a book,tiger mum...nice? he(german) got married with a korean lady with 3 kids...saw the pic, urgh! so darn adorable!! lucky him =)
gonna go bac n buy some other books too,cuz my fav writer came out with new books now..keke!

4pm....long way to go till Monday...continue telling myself,dont me emo,hax!!

tk care ppl..! =)

Hong Kong (homework)

So yea,been to few countries..visited most of the Asian countries but guess what?? i only get to step into Hong Kong, ONCE~~for that few hours...BESIDE the airport >< never been to town.. it's not lk i really DESPO to go..it's just that,out of curiosity..since it's lk another MUST go kinda place.. sis been there,so lk, no company, sigh sigh~~ watched this TV programme the other day introducing some places in HK think everybody knows it's highly populated country but easy to go around the city..blah blah... u can get to go to the seaside town..as in really,seaside town..haha! where u can get to eat lots of fresh seafood~ FYI, they actually cook the starfish for soup.....sth tat really make my jaw dropped was that, they eat starfish's eggs...lk, ewww~~

how nice~~

Honeymoon dessert..a must go too~ wher diff sorts of varieties of desserts r available..

http://www.honeymoon-dessert.com/en_us/category.php?tag=all

can try to log on to their web,quite interesting though~

at night can go off to Aqua Luna

Oo..if u do get to know, the Madame Tussauds, wher u get to touch,hug, hand shake or watsoever with the wax..actually, everyday b4 the operating hours, the staff would touch up the wax..that's how they maintain that =)

Tarts everywhere..but the good once, Tai Cheong was recommended

Tai Cheong Bakery

To get some souvenirs, probably head to Hollywood Road n find a store, GOD (Good of Desire) where they hv lots of items combined with fine arts..probably would be sth special to get back home~

oh yea,btw, HK famous actor, Jacky Chan..Staring Shinjuku Incident...hv u watch yet?? i mean izit out yet? LOL..so outdated @@

probably if u were looking for a very luxury n comfy hotel to stay in, try W Hong Kong,

with the concept Whatever, Whenever...in Kaolun..

Mathew Jung..kinda admire his way of managing the whole hotel..from inside out, it just seems so perfect~

dont hv to check in, welcome drink waiting for u in room..

oh, n the staff there r actually empowered to do anything for the customers...say, someone mentioned he/she missed the dog back at home..the staff could actually go out n get a mayb, say, soft toy of a doggie n put inside the room n surprise the customers.. how sweet rite?

n, digital arts everywher~

towards the check out, the staff would actually help u to pack ur bag, lk u can juz leave everything for them...

think it would b lk a very nice experience.. =) but muz hv cost a boom too =P

anyway, havent been ther yet,so..........nothing much i could comment =((((

When's my turn to go HK???? hmm~~

going Switzerland tmr..kinda,cold now.....mentally feel lk going out but physically..hmm hmm~~

Nitey~

Sheer Cover...over overrated in overseas!!!!

was sleeping the other night....with the TV on..
this ad, keep repeating n REPEATING towards morning time..
so, i woke up....annoyed~
n watched.....
the products r highly highly recommended!!
so,girls.....if u're interested =P

?????

stayed in the house for one whole day...finally it's over~~get to work tmr,woohoo!!! =)
i rmb 'someone' used to ask me, y cant i juz sit quietly at home, relax, get some rest together, enjoy the time being together, (save up money too)..haha,i guess just, CANT do it~~
now that my mum isnt working anymore..sometimes when i called her she's lk,im freaking bored~~~i LOL...but deep down inside,i know exactly how she feels..it's sth kinda lk, inherited?? muahaha! dont think we r lk hyperactive person..but we juz,cant do it.. =P

anyway,thought about a lot of things in this 12 hrs time..emailed ppl here n ther, ask about stuff that i MAY b interested in,etc..
so now left with a lot of question marks in my head..

spoke to my sis, talking bout getting bac to study..talked bout how i see things coming in 5 yrs time..she thinks im crazy,tat i may hv considering too little..but i duno, things happening around me,each days, r equally crazy enough ain't it =)
n i think, things tat dont sound crazy..or doesnt excites u...whats the point? ever heard about IF, u r not doing things tat u like daily, IF u hv no sense of purpose in living each days..u r physically alive..but truth is, u r dying slowly each days~~
n that when the day has come..i dunno,what will u feel that time? @@
n, think no one would actually hv a strong faith in u really..u just hv to believe in urself first b4 anybody gets to blif in you~~unless u're lucky enough to find tat soulmate that trust u in watever way u r..
'Stand up for wat u blif in, even it means standing alone' that's what tat inspired me yrs ago..n it stays forever with me >.=

so,i got some replies from SIM..n juz b4 the night ends, i received msg from my teacher,asking me except for flying..i really hv to b focus more on piano..only 3.5 mths left for now...for me to skip another grade~leaving me with guilts....since my theory exam,i think i kinda left out the piano till now..i juz..slowed down, ALOT ><
honestly, he bcame very anxious about me scoring lately..good n bad, im quite stress out actually~hahax!
but now i kinda get it...if his aims were to set up a music school (non profit)...for the poor to approach music.......i guess, IM IN... =)

so wats with the title of ???
will ther b a time when u juz wish u can do 100% out of ur to do list? fact is,in real life..u will need lots of lots of support to get that 100%..if not, sorry..probably juz 1/2~n make tat 1/2 be perfect....n u're gonna SHINE~~
???? i dunno wats the 1/2 going to be..aww~~
BUT,life is beautiful!!

wanna know a lil secret about me?
wats my weakness actually?
PATIENCE...i dont hv =)
high school yr,im juz so impatience that i had gone for work at the age of 15..
college yrs..im so impatience that i stop my degree n grab a permanent job..
love life,im so impatience sometimes that i dunno wats with the guy tat may seems to b interested in u,still not doing anything @@
so every day in my life now,i just need to tell myself, Shuang, BE PATIENT!!!
repeat with me plz....BE PATIENT!!
i really dont wanna stop wat im doing now..because everything else, (except for that sth,which im not going to tell) r sooO much perfect~



enjoy the song..n rmb, ur life is perfect too~ cuz u still get to make changes n aim for watever u feel lk doing for now!

n not to forget this,

this kind of thing, only certain ppl would send me to..it means a lot..


Have a GOOD night, folks!!~

Dato,Datin......

So, im back from kl ytd....n the amount of ppl with the title (dato) were lk....30%??
it really makes me wonder lk..how many of them r they in the country?
izit really lk what they said, u can buy the title, bout few millions..then, it helps in ur career especially if u're in business??
so SICK!!! after all, ppl r not that poor isnt it?

i recalled back ther's this time when i was waiting for pickup in front of a hotel,sth lk 5 star hotel..at the front where they hv two clubs..
sitting there alone,bout an hour....lots of Ferrari,lots of Mercedes.....get down the car,hand the key,went into the clubs,with few chicks n all~
for what i expect,was suppose to be someone at certain age range,with a look of wealthy background..but,nah~most of them r lk...at their late 20s,or 30s...skinny....not charming,(M)~ not being racist but..it is how it is...
it's so sad to watch most of my frenz,most of the ppl r working so hard for a living....while them?they juz got it,n i think they dont deserve it...

if we were to reveal lots of ugly sides of the country...i dont think just the politics alone, it's the culture, it's the people...that..we juz basically cant get rid of..
sighHH~~~right? ><

been working on weekends for the past two days..rainy days..
n i've got an off today...MOnday,when everyone's going back to work =((
anyhooo...probably it's time to go for stretch fit class~~hope im doing well..havent been exercising since..ages!! havent step into the pool for bout 2 mths since i got drowned d too...
n a good massage~~~
n a movie~~

Lovely day..730am.. just, cant wait to start off the day! =) XOXO

Wats with being RUDE?

guess what?! it's 4 am now..finished work n reached bac hours ago....feel lk posting sth bout what i've encountered today...
just really feel lk writing them down....for some day in the future, it reminds me every time of the moment, please dont turn into a person like THAT!

so yea, met him, the first thing he came to me, was asking for a form, in english version..it was written n filled in malay, so i double confirmed, u needed a eng one? so yea, he said yes..n when i get back n hand to him,he made a hand gesture n said,i dont need them..could u keep this for me?
so im lk, fine..took the thing n go off (politely).. which normally ppl would ask for 'sth' to b able to recognize it belongs to him..but i didnt cuz im having time constraint n i could rmb n recognize things..then he asked me, so u need that 'sth' or not....i smiled n said,no thanks, i will b able to recognize this..n he challenge me by asking me muz return to him as in HIM..
at that particular moment,it gets into my heart right away that this person is not easy~~n that only took us few sentences of talking, one or two body language..

n...i was right, because after which, he gave me a lot of problems..(which,couldnt really tell in details)
so,when i hv time to sit down n rethink...if u hv filled up the form,y ask for another copy in eng...if u were to know we alwez need that 'sth',y cant u juz hand in tgt with ur stuff?

if u were to ask me hv i gain sth so far out of the career?? i would say yea,money for sure....but money cant buy everything..
it's the lots of lots of lessons, taught by diff people, diff stages of ppl of all walks in life..
it made me a better person to who i am today...for i really came down to appreciate a lot of things..from me myself,to my family,even to a stranger tat is talking to me in no wher~n probably, being more sensitive to ppl nowadays..it's like,i can just tell..

sometimes,i dont get it,
does it mean that when u r paying for sth, u get to say everything? u get to have everything in the world that u could possibly think of from ur mind?that the time is all urs?
we used to know that ppl of higher level in the society r very easy going..communicating with them is never a prob,it's the middle range one, the one that earn well but not enough r the fussy once..
n one of the reason they used to tell me is that, those very wealthy once hv too much of prob in life that they wouldnt trouble themselves for tiny little prob that u gv them..
to me,it's not......i think it's their easy going attitude r the one that lead them to b how successful they r today..of their ability to handle stress that make them who they r today..
in n out every day, i've met ppl who impressed me, very much impressed....
but, still, ther r tons of ppl whom i juz dont get why.....it's lk,they just dont get it!~n,im guessing they wil never get it..

nonetheless, ppl.... i would juz lk to remind u,of who u r today, of wher u r standing today, be sincere to urself in the future u....also, be respectful to others..u will b pleased to know how far it could lead u..really~~
ther's no point to be particular n all stress out n mean...cuz at some point, u will only be standing n stepping on the same stage,couldnt go any further...cuz that's when u hv reach ur limits..n nobody would remind u of ur situation....bcuz u hv got no one else dare to be sincere to u in some ways~

too many too many ppl....too many things that we r handling every day..but to me, ther's only a very fine line between yes n no, in or out, right or wrong..
sometimes, ther is really nothing that state what is black or white..it's juz how u handle things n how u make ppl feel~~
do u think that all the very good decision makers r really that smart that they could differentiate n analyze things well every single day?? i personally dont think so...
be good to ppl, have a positive attitude..most of the time,it helps....to me,thats when the thing called 'luck' came~

talking bout ppl,
i really dont wanna categorize ppl by their countries or skin color...but i would lk to say, certain ppl r very outspoken, some VERY positive, some VERY negative, some very easy going..
i would just lk to talk about malaysians...we r very easy going ppl~ it's lk when ppl cut ur queue, when ppl mistreat u...we normally would just accept it..BUT complaining bhind the back..
it shows, in our politics..... because no matter how bad it is...we will still take it..
i dont wanna see my country falls apart..i stil have faith that we hv got very talented ppl in the country
how i wish someday,things would change.....
WILL WE CHANGE???

Aims..

So guess what...i hv been hybernating for two days in the hotel room,not going anywher when initially i planned for going Austria...
Think its juz the fact tat i don feel lk exploring the city alone,dont lk to b alone lately =) which is y,i was a bit upset leaving sg bfore coming...hv got two more days here,can i go back juz yet??
It's one of those days,when u r down,u hv a bad dream...a really bad one i mean,probably slept too much,hax!!
So yea,i went dumb for a lil while after being awake..
then as usual,ther goes a story telling coincidentally,when i needed them,great advise.. alwez ther to encourage me..brought me up to who i am today i shall say =)))

So yea,y whine about not having a home,y lost faith..
i could build one on my own,i could make them happen....
should stop thinking bout WHAT IF~
life is too short for that aint it?
So....probably its a good timing to get a house in kl...yup,decided to reside in kl,not the lovely pg...for my mum =)
n yea,seriously, i need to get to the classes...pick up some dancing,yoga mayb..

Skip my BMW museum today,which may b a good lost...but nvm,wil go another trip then...

still dunno wat to do bout future...but who cares~~im a girl who alwez do juz watever for wat it takes when i want them to b true,right??
Felt good now... n its Xmas soon my dear,can u feel it??
Cant wait!!!thanks for the good energy =) life is always good when u r around~

N,he mentioned sth lk, dont b sad for those tat hv betrayed u,hv walked away from ur life,for they didnt set u bac,they set u up...for the person u r today..cuz if they dont do so,u would probably not s successful s wat u r now..
so,if u r missing someone,if u r wondering y....tats y =)
B happy always! For anything tat comes in the future..!

There r still a lot of ambiguity seriously..lk,when shall i stop this 'holiday',when do i wanna get bac to study n live a normal life,n receive the happiness that every regular person gets..
i might not go bac to study d i guess...we study for getting to do wat u r good at,what u enjoy doing,get financially independent dont we??i guess i am able to do tat so far...so,i'll skip tat for now..stop stressing myself out of nothing here d..we alwez hv the ans of wat to do n when to do them most of the tim..but we juz lk to keep thinking n keep asking HOW,dont we =p
I can b very particular bout certain things, but im a very contented person i shall say ＾＾

Gambate lar~~b prepared for tmr,but not to worry bout tmr =)

when everyone's soundly asleep.....

It's bout 11pm here in Munich, 10·C, probably 6 in the morning back in msia..
I've got no one to talk to....not much place to hang out...tv's too bored having most channels tat speak in language i don und..ppl's too judgemental..so,kinda decided to stay in,hv my in room dining,avoid the crowd,the weather,the ppl...

Read back the blog,with the song played, kinda felt it's like a joke..Wat kind of big joke could happen in ur life??when u wanna go home... but frankly i doubt i hv one...hv no one to say,i miss u,n the needs of me being at anyone's side..
YET,
wat kind of joke could it b if...u hv always wanted sth,but nobody seems to b giving anything..n tat u drift urself away,away from the reality..n tat after yrs later,u suddenly came to realize a lot of ppl is giving n u're running away to accept,bcuz the fear of accepting wat might comes after tat..due to the fact,the dissappointment u hv bfore..

It's funny everytim u thought about sth,n tat goes lk how perfect,how sweet if tat could juz came true in ur life..but when it's happenning n u wil b asking,is tat wat i really wan? Cuz, everything seems to b possible,but probably too much to gv..

This is a song i used to play one yr bac...n i guess most of us felt lk its singing literally how we felt when we all first joined..
But,the 'someone else's life' has kinda be in part of me for bout one n a half yr...from a person who text a lot,hv got lots of contacts,likes meeting ppl,etc...to someone who could leave the phone bac in the house,knowing no one would bother calling anyway,till its odd having ppl asking how u r every day..i kinda,took it all..

At this point,i really wish i could make a pause...to breathe~
Because i know im very contented with wat i've pull out so far..
n i don seems to b able to gv anything else..n seriously,the world has got too much of temptations...the unknown..that i would possibly wanna know....i dont wanna stop just yet~For someone whom im not certain of..for those who r not even hv faith to themselves..
N i can assure u tat im nt being selfish...hv tried yrs to make ppl i care being happy...but truth is,no matter how hard u try,it all depends on how open hearted the person is,to accept wat u r trying..

Its kinda sad to hv this obvious ans in my mind for now....for,im not the girl bac then who go for just anything by guts..
but guess,tats how it is....for now =)
Truth is....ther r too many negative vibes....n im losing my faith..

One emo night...AGAIN~~

Watched Grey's...
laz epi, saying, "There's a reason i said i would b happy alone... It wasnt cuz i thought i would b happy alone
it was bcuz i thought if i love someone n it fall apart,i might not make it.. It's easier to be alone....
Cuz,wat if u like it n lean on it,
wat if u shape ur life around it,n then.....
It falls apart?
Can u even survive that kind of pain?

was a very sad ending for tat season..as always~shed some tears,sigh!
damn, im so emo...
Not quite sure whether or not its love..cuz after all,no one likes to commit at this age,n wheen things r too good to b true,i tend to juz runaway... It started with me meeting this girl, who works very hard for her life..
n i felt so sad for myself ><

think i've not been sleeping well lately, every 4 hours o sleep i wake up..
n it all depends whether or not i would lk to continue sleeping...most often than not,i didnt..

remember one n a half yr back, when i went for the job interview,
ther's this girl who mentioned this job would gives u a life-changing experience, it's an eye opener,etc..
to which i thought at that moment, REALLY?? too much!!
but looking back, yea, she somehow got it a lil bit right..
i've changed, ppl changed..
it sometimes too hard to see n too sad to accept~
n i kinda don wan myself to change tat way =(

when she asked me,so, wat u plan for future..?
i was like...frankly, i dunno.....
n she responded n say,tats good, it provides u more flexibility tat may comes the coming yrs..
hmm...wat does tat even mean??! i don even know where to start now, sigh~~

aih,can someone stop me from feeling guilty to hv sufficient rest each days??

Maslow's theory

well, somehow i think,yea,it kinda makes sense.....
so guys, which stage r u in now???
sometimes i do wonder, the hierarchy's right but it might not hv to b a triangle, should b a circle~ yes probably most of the physiological needs are met, n go on n on till they're satisfied of self-actualization (lk we would really satisfied =P) then,most often than not, we do go bac to the very basics, n rebuild a stronger base, get more of the physiological needs don't we? =)))

for whatever it is, gambate!!~

The Dos and Don'ts,the present and the past....

not having proper meal for few days, one midnight flight, one package of tidbits, n tats it!! im falling sick AGAIN......
tat kinda reminds me of the dos n don'ts i used to have,and, i missed them.........

-never stayed up till too late~ no matter how much work load i have, how important it is to burn midnight oil for studies, i never stayed up till 2am....that's the principle i used to hv.......rather to wake early than sleep late~

-never ever consume Panadol! avoid seeing doc....used to fall sick for the whole month, reluctant to consult doc, and tat was okay~~ BUT, had that once for a long flight... sick lk hell and that i had to tk note of not being overdose........
had one unknown medicine for a drug addict.......just bcuz i gotta work,n,was in pain...

-do sing k when i feel lk i had to, it always make me feel happy~ BUT, i no longer hv that habit anymore...........

-do eat whatever i like, bcuz, my body used to be able to take it.......

-do ignore ppl that i dont like to talk to


and, now?? sigh~~~ people changed.......all the time...! for good n for bad~

get well soon....

Be content but don't settle for too little..

To whoever followers,it's been a year since I've come to sg.....guess what?time flies~~really does...
a lot of things have happened,hv not happened,etc......plenty of stuff going through my mind each and every day as well. And, the most frequent question that always pop up is,when r u going to quit shuang? >< yea,seriously..had few sleepless nights thinking bout that like,always~

thought I am going to quit my job and b a piano teacher,live my life simple, then there goes this guy saying 'well,a cousin of mine hv a doctorate in music, she's joining SPO, (which yea,i had this silly dream, to join MPO) oh, n she's having a pay that is lesser than urs...' 'screw that, interest will never feed u well,etc....' well, that got me into emo state for a great 5 days...then I got back town, n guess what? I still never would stop practicing...truth is, interest may not feed u well, but u will never know where it will lead you to.......! n one thing im for sure is, it will leads u to happiness =))

been working with ppl not at my age range atm......spoke with this guy in particular, 55 years old (around my mum's age) he reminded me that in Psycho, we used to learn that ppl around this age range, tend to reflect their life, as in what they had achieve in life, those that they don't... if they're pretty much satisfied, they would then bcome arrogant, proud, and of course, happy..
but if they don't, well then, most of the time they would grumble till......the day they couldnt remember things well, or......the day they leave this world...n one thing I realized they would always say is,'what for I save up the money, I can't bring them with me when I die..'
that reminds me of another old man which I so happened to meet in Midvalley. He couldn't stop bragging about how great his son n daughter r doing, how smart is his grandson, and even his wife is dead, he wouldn't stop praising her as a pretty lady, how well they tolerate with each other and hv alwez love each other...
then I hv this guy told me, how hard his life was when he was young, how he save up money to support the family, how he sacrifice for his family......
n okay, gonna end the story here~ but my point is, be good to your parents, especially when they're at this age range.. second, don't end up being the second guy, we work hard, but we hv to enjoy life as well~if u choose not to, don't regret when u get old!!

the thing about being content is..actually for me, for those who've got a job, for those who r still in their studies..
u may be working for a company that brings you a lot of stress, u may b very tired of going to work each day, u may be sick of being a student, sick of what u hv to face every day.. Dudes, im sure if u look up, there're plenty of ppl is having those lifestyle that u want, financial state that u wan, fame that u yearn for..but, sometimes, try to look down, there're also plenty of ppl is being envious of what u r having today!! a job? Education?
So yea,be content of what you have, really.............

and what's with the don't settle for too little?? it's actually from a story that I heard from my fren...b it u're reading or not reading....i would just like to say, if u're so sure that u can make it, and ppl around hv faith in u, y gv up n say that mayb I just don't have what it takes to be? Cause if u do, u're acting like a child, n so, don't blame ur parents for treating u like one~~

oh, n I was reading this book 'rich dad,poor dad', stop reading after topic 3, cuz it stressed me out!! @@
but one thing he mentioned, ther's this one thing about being a couple, it's either he/she would pull you down, block your way to a greater future, or he/she will inspire u to be a better u and work hard to each other's future......
well, I think it's somewhat true cause I've came across lots of time where when ppl hv some great offers,they would always have an excuse of, I dont wanna b apart with my partner....or, my partner dont allow me to do so.......
true? =) ish.....that again, freaked me out!!! =P

cheers~

Wish you were here

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all

There's a girl
who gives a shit
behind this wall
You've just walked through it

And I remember, all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Chorus:
Damn, Damn, Damn,

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/wish-you-were-here-lyrics-avril-lavigne.html ]

What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Bridge:

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go)


No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here (I wish you were)
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.


Perfect lyrics,perfect voice,perfect sound background.....isnt it???see y i like her now? =)
still couldn't get her album in expanded version.......should i ship them from US,really?hmm~~~

Taipei

was just telling my sis,i wan taipei..............then,wuups~i got it!FOC =)))
but.....it wasnt a VERY pleasant trip i would say..probably it's true that,it all depends on who u hang out with~if it's ur love once,even staying at home is comforting enough rite?
every now n then,we do get to meet ppl who r genuinely nice..certain ppl would b very bossy,certain don't lk to mix around,some very straight forward n bitch around...this time round,i met someone who would like to help,but the mouth couldnt stop whining...another,u could guess what's in their mind,but they r saying the opposite stuff...lk......grrr!!!
i would say,sometimes,or most of the time...homo sapiens r really very funny creature..
but anyway,taipei is beautiful!~if u think food in msia is good,taipei is lk..hmm,5x of it??lots of varieties,lots of specialties =)
oh oh........the thing i lk the most,is their tv channel!!! i watched their programs from night time n stayed til bout 3am...regardless of whether i gotta work the next day... hmm~
ok,i know it's not healthy..but am i not right to say,certain imperfections in life,we can only get them from such entertainment?? =P

so,start off the day with their local breakfast

豆浆油条~

the 臭豆腐...syok!


they got one very special sausage..大肠包小肠。。。。hmm~


bought the shirt...very nice drawing rite...looks just lk me,one lonely lil girl..muahaha!

im buying shirts from taipei lk ther're none in sg/msia..... =P

hv no idea y i bought the dress.............dont think im going to wear it in anyway ><
but,that proof im stil a normal girl~~who sometimes spare on things i dont need.... (lame)**

too bad i don't club....they say u can hear the dj rap in chinese..would b a nice experience...(if u're into it)

that's all~ =)

One..reveal~

Every single nights I would feel lk writing..probably,tats when I sum up my life...same goes to tonight..but,i found this~tat i've writen few mths ago.. (revealing~)

People walking in and out from our lives
Was it they yearn for happiness they thought I could gv them
Walking away by means I dont hv the ability to do so??

I used to share with ppl,of my stories...
But there're too much of them now...n that,im on my own~
Meeting strangers each days make me tired even how exciting it could b..

But we're not looking backwards...cause,
Everybody moved on....
They moved on......leaving me bhind..lk im hanging in the corner
Where no one else would care..

What I do is to lay on the bed,waiting......fr day to turn dark..fr night time till the day shine~
Couldnt find a place in the world that feels lk home
Anymore...

There has been confusion..but nothing's goona change..
Of how I am..
Of how I would be..
cuz im going to choose to be happy
Im better off alone n be happy...
Waiting for the someone..n live a happy ending~


Awww.......look how emo I was~couldnt rmb wat I was thinking that tim ><
But I rmb the reasons y I've writen that... =)
if ther's an award for emo girl..i would probably win the prize at tat time.....LOL!

good night world!! XOXO

HibERRnaTING in Denmark

alwez n forever in my PJ~~~

the swollen n red eye~n the si pek fat face!!

booO!

time to go healthy!!oh oh..ma fav!CEREAL!!~~but shit,cant hv them now......screw the cough!


they wrote LOVE on the ground~~sweet!!cant do that in Msia!hax~
life style here is lk...super comforting......aww,wish i were born here! =P

RoMe!

sixteen chapel~the most meaningful part of the museum

lk this pic in person~~so,Jesus never touch the fingers of human....what do u think it means?
n i beg u din know tat there's one missing part in 15th piece...cuz of the mistake during cleaning..oh,did i forget to say,it's not normal painting? =)


hercules if u could recognise~

sweet loving couple,ish ish! =P



bible in diff language...even chinese!



gelato~

Mistakes done...

emo-ing.......

one mistakes done, would have lots of lots of amendments to be done..
I'm just being me,most of the time..forgetfulness!!!
not having a purse, after getting on buses, taxis....
not having a phone for the damn whole day..
lost my easylink, my touch & go card,etc.......

it's not like old times anymore..where u're well pampered..just one cal, i would get what i want from home..sometimes~it would just sent to school, not even noticing i forget to bring those 'important stuff'..
it's not like old times where, just one call to home, someone's there would take them n get for u..
it's not like old times where, ppl actually make the effort to remind me what's important anymore....
countless time if u would wan me to state how many have i done of the above~

n bcuz of these, im trained to be pretty forgetful...
just happen to realize, it's not acceptable at all in work =((
be it first time, be it u forget....none were accepted..
n,be it saying sorry...nobody even bother... u just have to be sorry for urself...cuz u've ruined ur own opportunity..ur own record........ur own career........
that's the thing i don't lk bout well established company....anything extraordinary is not accepted..when u're good u're nothing...when u did bad...u're bad..tats how it works~~

anyway,my own mistake...i hv to bear with them...

like i've said..im suppose to be sad........but i don't want to!

things aren't going too well lately..bit screwed n messed up.........
but i have to move forward...not looking back..

BRAND NEW ID...BRAND NEW DAY!!
going to work after 13 days off!!!~plus, doing for a flight for own country =)
it's gonna be a good day still!!~

anyway,it's valentines' day~~~though none of my business but,happy valentines ppl!!
im off from love cuz im sick of having one...but it doesnt mean ppl i care bout dont deserves to be happy,as they felt lk happiness do came fr the love once~~
LoVE is StIlL aLL aRoUND!~

ps...i definitely need to change the habits, for a better me...a better future *wink*

PS, I LOVE YOU~

The very first book i've finished by Cecelia Ahern...
not as teary once as others told that i would..in fact,none~
but a nice one.....how often in life would someone be gone from your life, yet, leaving the letters, the list, of what you should or should not do...till you've get over it? how sweet isn't it? =)

The lines i like the most,
"Finding someone you love and who loves you back is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. But finding a true soul mate is an even better feeling.
A soul mate is someone who understands you like no other, loves you like no other, wil be there for you for ever, no matter what.
They say nothing lasts forever, but I am a firm believer in the fact that for some, love lives on even after they're gone...."

"She was a woman who made mistakes, who sometimes cried on a Monday morning or at night alone in bed. She was a woman who often became bored with her life and found it hard to get up for work in the morning. She was a woman who more often than not had a bad hair day, who looked in the mirror wondered why she couldn't just drag herself to the gym more often; she was a woman who sometimes questioned what reason had she to live on this planet. She was a woman who sometimes just got things wrong. But, she was a woman with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who as ready to experience life,more love, and make new memories"


Well, another one to share, from Dawn,about, pencil~
A pencil maker told his pencils 5 important lessons in life...



1st: Everything you do will always leave a mark...

2nd: You can always correct the mistakes you make...

3rd: What's important is what is inside of you...

4th: In life, you will undergo painful sharpenings that

will make you a better pencil...



and.....



5th: The most important is to be the best pencil you can be.

By allowing yourself to be held and guided by the hand that holds you.

=)))

The CNY~

brand new yr of 2011...first post~
Chinese New Year, being stuck in sg~
after 8 months in sg.....
still,having one unstable career...not much of savings n......havent clear my study loan! $@#%#$%@ ><

alright, i aint someone who's extremely negative..so i would say, still freaking happy to be in here bcuz i finally get what i've alwez wanted in life!!! which is my baby piano in house =))) on my own~~~
have not been working daySS ago..n will still b stuck here in sg till 12th,which is y im so darn free to blog again~

i have to say i really REALLY in LOVE with what im doing for now..as for the first time, i wouldnt need to be envious of other ppl's life..but having thought juz to be better me in me~ bought LOADS of stuff i've always wanted by myself..planning lots of things ahead on my own too! they used to say starting of working life is like the end of your life to enjoy.......to me, IT's just the BEGINNING of my life..n im enjoying every single moment of it!

but then again, life just won't go well for me..i hv no idea why...it baffles me at times too~ but......whatever it is..I WILL STILL SHINE!! That's what im certain of =)
Robert taught me well.. tough time never last,but tough people WILL~ =P be it im off from sg,got sack,back to msia...either way,i will still strive in whichever ways...mum used to ask me,why can't i just live my life simple,and be happy? well,im really envious of those who can life their live simple......n hv lil happiness for themselves..but i just like to mess up my life and learn it the hard way~ i just like it that way,cant i =P

CNY is the best time to get connected bac to ppl whom u might long lost contact?which i did..... happy to know everyone's doing just fine..! even happy to know a lot of them is perhaps doing well n working very hard for what they thought is best for themselves!~ like this kind of feelings.. =) being an adult wasnt as bad as we thought after all~~~ we have to freedom to do anything out of it!

to those who's still figuring what to do with life, lost in no where mayb...it's time to start something out of it!!! aza aza!~

had a pathetic meal when everyone's having reunion dinner...gamble n drink the other night....sleep thru the whole day after din tai feng~~ n,dunno what to do again today =((((







HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!~